Ferret Monkey *

i don't like this.

2012-03-01T10:43:00.000+08:00

please do not ask me what's wrong because i cannot find the answer myself.
all i know now is that i want to own an animal sanctuary and die happy.

with your back to me.

2012-02-28T01:18:00.002+08:00

after a long hiatus, my immune system is working horribly again.
i'm pretty sure the bacteria inside my nose have pioneered another great wall of china inside.
i think this is God telling me to take a chill pill.

could You lend me a hand?

01:52.

insanity.

2012-02-21T13:50:00.003+08:00

so yesterday, i did the insanity workout with rayceal back in school.
almost puked, and practically dying on the drama mat as we were talking about how school has changed.
i'm so glad i graduated, but at the same time i'd just love to go to those days i spent underneath the college building, that i used call school.
maybe not the last few days of it; those were terrible.

these past few days have been extensively tiring for me,
physically and mentally.

sometimes i wish i could take out my brain, and analyze each and every thought that had ever been planted in my head.

i need something to be excited about!

electrify.

2012-02-04T23:27:00.003+08:00

today, it has just dawned upon me how much i have really changed from the past year.

and from the previous years.

in terms of accomplishments, i am proud of what i have done.

but in terms of habits and actions, i'm not exactly sure what went wrong there.

i can't keep blaming that one thing from the past, because that's just being in denial of my own mistakes. so i guess, there is only one resolution for me this year: to be a better person.

it's a lot more complicated in my head, than anywhere else.

i guess self-discovery is found in every solo adventure.

"no distance can separate,

imagine us combined, light up the room; electrify,

our love could be so divine,

we'll make rainbows at night,

when it's dark, we'll be light, we'll be light."

little kids.

2012-01-23T12:44:00.002+08:00

i never want you to be lonely, ever again.

says a 7-year old boy to a 7-year old girl.
maybe that's exactly what i want.

january 18

2012-01-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

to the man who has always been my favorite,
who has shown me love at its purest;
who has sacrificed for my happiness;
who has brought light to my past;
who has been nothing to me but home.

happy 84th birthday, grandpa.
i miss the days you would take me horse riding and anywhere,
and the days you carried me so i could see the world,
and the days when you were around.
i just miss you a lot.

"i decided to become a physics lecturer, because i love physics and it makes me happy. so just do whatever that makes you happy."

some want to kiss, some want to kick you.

2012-01-17T07:15:00.000+08:00

there's this growing anger inside me that needs nothing but to be thrown away.
but it's just slightly more difficult because the seed has been planted.

i'm not too sure where this is all going, but it's uncannily turning out like an incident that happened almost 4 years ago.
that wasn't pretty.

all i really want to ask is:
what do you want from me, and why are you doing this?

a decade.

2012-01-15T18:43:00.002+08:00

this year marks my tenth year in malaysia, and honestly speaking, i'm itching to get out.

however, i am forever grateful for the biggest change in my life.

thank you God for placing me on this part of the map.

but,
could someone take me on a magic carpet ride and show me a whole new world?

charles darwin

2012-01-11T14:16:00.003+08:00

"it is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent that survives. it is one that is the most adaptable to change."

two thousand and eleven.

2011-12-24T10:57:00.000+08:00

this year has been full of accomplishments, and failures.
love lost, and found.
lessons learnt.
there was pain, and there was joy.

i believe that this year was filled with continuous repetitions, and it really took a toll on me.
nonetheless, it was a ride; one of the most amazingly twisted years.

i have yet to conquer my fears, and i'm looking forward to do that next year.
2011, as much as i hated you, thank you for the 365 days.

double exposures ; 263

2011-12-22T14:53:00.000+08:00

double exposures on my supersampler - an experiment yet to be conducted.

262 levels

2011-12-19T00:07:00.001+08:00

Right now I just feel like filling up my blog with weird, impromptu posts like this.
I'm going to Indonesia in 6 days, and it turns out it's only going to be with just my parents this time. Another fun fact, I'm going to East Java with them and my grandma with the train.

I don't know whether to be excited or itching to find a way out.
That's like an almost 6-hour trip by train with people who are triple my age.
Listing down the awkward moments I'll have would be useless, because that list would be endless.

I don't think I can survive 2 weeks + 1 day without the company of people I could talk to. Who the hell am I going to talk to without my sisters around?
If you don't really know me, my parents and I do get along, but not to the extent of me telling them everything, because that bond diminished a long time ago.
I do joke around and mess around with them, but when it's time to talk about current circumstances, it just doesn't seem right.

Maybe I'm just scared that they'll ask me questions that I'll never want to reveal the answers to, or they find out something and I can't escape the investigation.
Something of that sort.
Maybe I've got authority issues.

I just don't like the awkward silences and questions and jokes and conversations I share with my parents. Of course, people would say that "only you can change that".
Trust me, if I knew what I could possibly change, I would.
But you know what, I'm scared.
It's always because of previous experiences; they either turn my day disappointing or just downright depressing.

Meh.

But maybe, I'm just overthinking this.
I mean, it's just 15 days right?
What could possibly go wrong?

I'd like a warm hug.

261 passive me, aggressive you

2011-12-14T12:09:00.002+08:00

Today is probably the only time that I was capable of balancing my accounts without the help of anyone.
And that was, hopefully, the last time I'll ever touch accounting, ever again.

I am famished, and I don't even know the cause.
I cannot wait for the holidays, and apparently I'm spending my holidays mostly with my parents, because my sisters cannot exit the country.
Maybe I would turn all of these sorrows to some retail therapy, because it seemed to work last time.
Or just not do anything.

It would be great if my dad decides to renovate the house in Jakarta, because I have a huge urge to paint walls and drilling some holes on the wall and decorate and turn my supposed room awesome.
Well, like they say, your sorrows turn to art.
And make my dad buy a hammock, so I could pretend I'm on the beach, when I'm actually in the backyard, completing my everlasting list of books to read.
It would be a great opportunity.

Things are taken a turn, and it's making me weird.
If only my thoughts could be translated to words.

confuse me, 260

2011-12-01T21:00:00.001+08:00

December 1.

Please stop with all these nonsensical "December, please be good to me", because I'm having the worst first day of the month ever.

I get it. I do learn things better the hard way, but seriously, today?

Maybe I'm just a little bit short-tempered because my period is on its way soon.
But still.

So many things are bugging me.
Someone please make it stop.

it's alright to act like a dickhead 259

2011-11-24T17:53:00.001+08:00

why is it automatic to hate the person that's better than you, other than the reason of jealousy?
why do people punish them with hatred?
modesty will never be understood.

i have three weeks left until the end of term.
contemplating what possibilities are there for the vacant three weeks.

tears and fears, part 258

2011-11-21T01:24:00.003+08:00

I have a fear of being alone, and being too attached to someone.

You can ask me countless of times as to why, but the only answer I can give is because I'm scared.

Scared because I don't know what would happen if those two would ever occur in my life.

And the fear of not knowing just swallows me whole.

I reread posts that has something tied to my grandfather's death.

And I cannot help but to cry, over and over again.

I guess this is what I've been hiding from everyone.

Or maybe this is what my excuse was the whole time.

Grandpa, I really miss you.
I really do hope you miss me too.

tourism (257)

2011-11-17T05:05:00.003+08:00

okay, i know i haven't posted in here for quite some time.

i guess college has kept me occupied with the numerous assignments and as well as trying to balance the favours my parents constantly shove up my ass.

that was excruciatingly exhausting.

anyway, my "new" term ends in a matter of three weeks, and my perception of tourism has definitely changed.

in terms of basics, tourism is practically synonymous to travelling. and with that, it is broken down to different sectors. before i get to that, people would generalize tourism as studying to become either a tour guide, or a travel agent.

guess what, general public, that is what you call stereotypes.

i have met people who study engineering, who actually does badly in math, and another person in business, loathing math.

everyone underestimates tourism, in so many ways.

as a tourism student, it's just sad to see people falling into that trap of never thinking out of the box. these assumptions should be banished from your thoughts.

maybe people who do not study tourism does not realize this, but tourism can be related to any topic in the world. there are so many types of tourism, and you might not even know you were a "tourist".

there is the biggest genre: leisure. then comes the others, such as business, education, and events, in which these could be again be broken down to different categories. that would probably bore you though.

there are so many aspects of the world that contribute to tourism: geography, logistics, business, history, economy, politics, culture, science, psychology and language. i can relate almost all my subjects i've studied in my school years to tourism.

without tourism, what is the world?
would there even be a world?

christopher columbus did travel the world to discover the americas.

the next time you go to an event, especially concerts, maybe you should ask around where they came from.

maybe they're from another part of the city, or the country.

maybe they are from a different country.

and guess what?

that is the beauty of tourism.

oh, and yes, you can become an event manager by studying tourism.

and you can become so many things.

stop undermining tourism students.

i'm the fury in your head - 256

2011-10-13T01:34:00.003+08:00

if i was allowed to get a tattoo, i would definitely have a paw right next to my birthmark.

if you're ever wondering where my birthmark is, it's on my right shoulder blade.

i might have just underestimated everything that is coming towards my days.

i haven't been home for a week, it's killing me slowly inside.

i miss my mom's nosy behavior, and my dad's lame jokes.

and i think i have just picked up a new hobby: collecting badges.

i'm dying to share this song to someone, so i hope your ears are those suitable for this song.

i can feel every ounce of me changing.

it's just so different out there.

255

2011-10-04T23:30:00.001+08:00

today, i sat looking out the window,

as the rain conquered college.

i ended up with 12 haikus.

and a moment of epiphany.

i don't know why i did that.

my questions needs answers.

and it's just swallowing me whole.

254/二五四

2011-09-26T14:29:00.003+08:00

today marks the last day of term 1.

can't say i'm not excited.

i've got nothing much on my mind,

just a few thoughts of the past.

it's quite surprising how i can still tear up even after 4 months.

maybe i just really need something grande and big to make me forget about it, completely.

i just can't seem to find the time.

but i would really love to do it.

coz i'm running all the time...

253

2011-09-15T00:20:00.004+08:00

i am literally a wreck.

like, titanic,

but the true story.

my room is a mess,

my feet are screaming to part away from me,

my mind is flying on a paper plane,

and i am just.

tired.

i'm still tired,

exhausted,

famished.

like a cranky old grandma, finishing up her bloody knitting.

the amount of emotions i currently have is limitless.

plans, plans, plans. [252]

2011-09-04T14:19:00.005+08:00

okay, so.

i guess the only way i could possibly get hold of myself is by exploration and discovery.

therefore, i came up with a to-do list.

(i'm kidding, this is a very impromptu list)

1. get a Diana Mini, which would ultimately lead to...

take a photography trip around KL
take a photography trip to Genting

2. get an iPod Touch, which would make my life easier because

it's a little replacement for my incompetent laptop
i can feed myself with much better music, compared to what my miraculous phone could fit

3. plan a little trip to the beach

so that i could parasail and play beach volley
as well as watch the sunset

4. save money for the ultimate extremes: GMax Reverse Bungy and Bungy Jumping in Lagoon

but of course, it's like 150, which is like 30 hours of work
which means it's like 6 hours of work in 6 days.

5. get a supersampler,

because i think it's the best film camera to be introduced to the world

6. finding a good book to read, and take one day to finish it at a coffee shop.

preferably a Palahniuk book, which would cost around 40.
and ignore all calls, except my parents, while at it
this way, i conduct an experiment of actualization.

well, those are the priorities.

minorities would include getting a driver's license, and begging my dad to change my laptop with my "mom's".

i just realized this is going to cost a lot of money.

but, like i tweeted,

thus, i shall be patient.

looking at life in optimism is slightly harder when everything around you is just not getting better.

but that's what makes you a much stronger person now than before.

psh,

don't listen to me.

i've only led myself into an abyssal pit of darkness.

where's my pancake? [251]

2011-09-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

people continuously ask me this very particular question:

"so, how's college?"

I tell them a simple, "it's too early to judge" or a, "it's alright/okay".

some are lucky - I tell them the few/many things bothering me.

but of course, in all honesty, there is a 5-page essay for the answer.

with all of these nonsensical dramas, and unimportant poppycocks that exist around my college life, I really have to ask myself:

what did I get myself into?

it would be hypocritical of me to complain and nag about them online, because that was what one did before.

so I'll just pretty much sit here in annoyance, pondering on how I will survive in this course for the next 2 years.

this is not college for me; it's just a bundle of frustrations.

which in turn, leads to my exhaustion of life.

like previously mentioned,

this is not my year.

two fifty

2011-08-21T10:29:00.002+08:00

it's been a while since i blew my own candle for a wish.

i sincerely do not want to be seventeen.

neither do i want to stay in this position.

249 (二四九)

2011-08-14T11:54:00.001+08:00

i really do not like

where this year is going.

two hundred forty eight.

2011-08-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

obviously,

i don't feel like myself lately.

it's like i'm built from scratch;

the leftovers.

what do you people really think of me?

it's funny how i keep expecting a surprise,

but how can you expect something that's supposedly

random

and

out of the blue?

247 delusional monsters riding my unicorn

2011-07-30T16:47:00.004+08:00

the title is pretty self-explanatory.

no, there's not much that's bugging me these days.

not comparing to last time.

it's a lot better now.

i just need to learn how to juggle 5 pins and balance on a ball while tightrope walking at the same time.

i'm just slightly

cluttered.

i need something new.

246

2011-07-16T00:07:00.001+08:00

i'm pinned down by the dark.

this is more than a new chapter.

this is the prologue.

people think i'm 18.

it's funny how i'm not even close.

245

2011-07-02T01:18:00.002+08:00

the whole half of 2011

just

vanished.

sure,

the human wants

are infinite

and impossible to

satisfy.

but nobody said

you had to satisfy all.

there is

not a single chance

in the world

where i can satisfy

my endless

wants.

never.

i want out.

the white sands,

the calm blue,

i just want

that.

two hundred and forty four.

2011-05-31T13:00:00.002+08:00

11 years,

132 months,

572 weeks,

4015 days.

my whole school life is over,

and i seriously have no idea what to do.

still a little bit overwhelmed by the loss,

but maybe, just maybe

tomorrow will do the trick.

243; my mourning call

2011-05-29T10:03:00.002+08:00

as of 29 may 2011,
02:10 GMT +7

the world just lost another soul.
one of the kindest people to have ever stepped foot on earth.
one of the greatest people i'll ever know in my whole life.
one of the best people to have ever lived.
and one of the only people who actually loved me.

as i write this,
my tears fall for every memory that i've shared with him.

no one can ever replace a great man like him.
RIP grandpa.

January 18, 1928- May 29, 2011

242; my epi/prologue

2011-05-24T13:05:00.006+08:00

junaid @ march 25

avinesh & andra @ may 17

kelvin @ april 15

rina, reuben & rayceal @ may 20

asha & rina @ march 21

ilya @ march 1

andriana, ilya & kelvin @ april 15

andriana & ilya @ march 27

rina, andriana, asha, shamaine, shervina & rayceal @ march 18

rina @ may 16

naufal @ may 13

rayceal & andriana @ may 13

rayceal @ may 13

my mom told me i never wanted to go to school when i was young.

thank god she forced me to go to school.

my last 5 months spent surrounded by the most amazing bunch of people.

pictures aren't adequate; they're not equal to the memories i've had with them.

i couldn't have asked for a better high school life.

to all the people who have made my last 2 years of high school the best few years of my life,

thank you.

for everything, and anything that you've done for me.

even the smallest things.

i'll miss this.

knowing that i can never go back,

it tears my heart a little.

241

2011-05-07T17:13:00.003+08:00

obviously things changed.

obviously i changed.

i changed.

change.

i've been too exhausted.

way too tired.

18 more days until the end of high school.

maybe it's not hitting me just yet.

my façade of contentment is slowly fading.

my painted smiles.

i'm not saying i'm not happy.

i'm just,

not that.

swimming in the lake of disappointment.

(which is a real lake, by the way)

240 - all that is gold is rusted.

2011-04-25T21:56:00.003+08:00

my mundane life has become eventful.

that was the most tiring weekend ever.

wait, correction, the most tiring week.

empire, rehearsal, assignments, performance night, reggae, rina's and bouldering.

sums up the 7 days that passed so far.

but definitely the weekend was the most tiring.

i had the biggest whirlwind on friday.

started with pajama day in school,

then losing 435 bucks in the morning because my wallet got stolen,

being supported by the two people that the money was supposed to go for,

skipping history because i spent the whole class time crying,

shopping with aparna, andriana and rayceal at cotton on,

surprising rayceal with kelvin, ilya, aparna and andriana,

spending the rest of the night with rayceal, hasbi, jaz, darius, hussein and jengo,

sleeping only for an hour or so.

waking up at 7, reading the newspaper, going to sunway.

saturday.

it was definitely hectic because i was temaning andriana with darius for her medical checkup.

freezing as heeeeeell, i could not feel the tips of my toes.

i ran to the sun and have never felt so grateful of the heat.

but it was fun, talking with darius and andriana.

and then went to pyramid to get rayceal's and rina's stuff with naufal.

and caught up with my sleep in the cinema... supposedly watching red riding hood.

then chilled by myself while waiting for the two slow pokes, rayceal and andriana, by reading the catcher in the rye.

took the nicest cab to wondermilk, and definitely going there again.

changed, and took 20 or less minutes to get to rina's house.

in one word: (Y)

that's all i can really say.

everyone had their share of fun, ups and downs.

i won't mind spending another day there too.

i had my roti jala and played twister. hardly get to do that in one weekend!

sadly there were hardly any pictures, but whatever, it was fun :)

again, i hardly slept.

but then again, i woke up around 8.

i've never had so much tea in one morning.

spent some time chilling, and then all of a sudden, rina came up with the idea of rock climbing.

genius.

i went anyway,

and it was undoubtedly exhausting.

a lot of challenge, it was exciting!

my body is now so sore, i can't accept hugs :(

but all the pain and the sleep i sacrificed

was all worth for the most memorable weekend

and now i have to read othello to sleep.

oh and i have a prom to go to...

here we go again. [239]

2011-04-16T09:46:00.003+08:00

it's funny how the rainy season just started.

i think i like it.

i'm supposed to finish 2 1000-word essay, study for a math test, and practise a monologue.

it's a whole line-up of fun, fun, fun, fun!

school is starting to fall apart bit by bit.

nice move on banning facebook, by the way.

stop treating me like i don't know how to handle myself.

use your common sense, the more you put on rules, the higher chance of people doing the exact opposite.

and you call us childish.

45 more days.

forty five.

i went back to bandung just last week, and i never felt so happy.

i missed my mom's cooking, definitely.

and i missed the comfort of home.

definitely.

i cut my hair, and i named a cat monkey.

and i bought The Catcher in the Rye by JD Salinger.

which i just read a page or two of, i ko-ed on the train after i read it.

but so far, so good :)

funny story about going back,

i was supposed to go all by myself.

told it to everyone, being so proud; it was a moment of emancipation.

just at the moment i was going back home,

my sister says, "oh, you're not going alone any more, did you know that?"

i could feel the rage gushing its way out of my mouth and i just shouted.

i mean, seriously,

how would you feel, if you really wanted out,

a solitary journey of tranquillity (somewhat),

and it turns out that your own dad is following you?

okay, i wasn't exactly pissed at my dad.

i was pissed at my mom.

dad's cool with the whole deal, mom isn't.

and i'm supposed to be independent, how?

sigh.

but whatever, i'm through with that, it wasn't that bad.

i was chilling my grandparents and parents.

don't get to do that every day.

counting down 12 weeks is actually pretty heavy.

i need distractions.

i miss you already, hanif.

gotta start working on writing a bag load of nonsense now.

the earth is so excited, it's crying!

238; do you know me well?

2011-03-29T09:17:00.003+08:00

i literally ko-ed last night.

and i just woke up.

well, not really.

but i had the rare but recommended 8-hour sleep.

yay world!

so like, my report card's a mess.

because i'm a mess.

catastrophe mayhem havoc

whichever you choose.

i'll sum each day up with a word each:

macarons, cards, mime, maggie, mgmt, chilling, remixed.

but to some all those days together = better than unicorns jumping over leprechauns at the end of a skittles rainbow in a rainy day.

can't wait for my dad to come back.

so i can eat some kick-ass brownies :)

my dad just made my morning :)

237 - dude looks like a lady.

2011-03-19T23:51:00.003+08:00

my days are like a collage of recycled newspaper.

travel journalism sounds a lot like fun.

this might be it.

i think this is the chilled weekend.

but then again, the chaos and mayhem will start again, once the clock strikes 12 on the 21st.

i'm so anticipating for all this.

in 47 days, i can't consider myself as a highschooler any longer.

that is something new to adapt to.

definitely going to take more time.

mgmt is in 5 more days.

i'm super duper excited!

i just have no idea what to wear.

236 - xxzxczx

2011-03-08T22:32:00.004+08:00

everything is temporary.

happiness is finite.

an hour, a minute, a second,

can turn that smile upside down.

or the other way around.

unachievable;

i tried.

in a span of 3 hours,

3 people have told me the least i wanted to hear.

i have yet to know what home truly is,

but wherever that is, i want to camp right in there and cowardly face the world by hiding under a warm blanket.

i could feel the rush of my blood pumping through my aortic valves and making its way to my body, and slowly going to my brain.

every beat of my heart is so vivid and sharp.

i could feel it throbbing, clawing its way out of my chest.

i don't know what this is.

"So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk

And you feel like you're going where you've been before

You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all."

(235)

2011-03-06T17:39:00.002+08:00

http://www.mmail.com.my/content/65449-now-cat-abuser-caught-act

as you all know, i'm a firm believer of fighting against animal cruelty.

if you didn't, you should.

anyways,

what this person (i don't even know if he/she deserves a title of being called 'human') did is just absolutely disgusting.

and it's so sad how it's only getting written in the news because it was "caught on cctv". what about the ones that weren't caught on tape?

and i don't even know if this heartless tool is getting punished.

i didn't watch the video, because i know i'll cry and i don't want to start the waterworks.

but, you can watch it here.
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1895256344554&oid=276194922385&comments

and apparently the thing wrote an "apology" letter as well.

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=187489971286350&set=o.44640111208&ref=nf

i don't really think the letter is legit though.

her excuse was because of a broken home. uhh, i'm sorry? elaborate more.

not everyone from broken homes turn their stress to abusing poor little kittens.

seems like an insincere letter to me.

and plus, if she does report this to the police, does it really mean she gets a punishment?

the most is probably, what? 1 year imprisonment?

i hope not.

i just think it's disgusting.

we're all animals.

we're all becoming worse than animals if people continue acts like this.

i don't care if you don't have a cat.

it's the same as violence towards a mute person.

karma is a bitch.

it will bite.

raise awareness people.

imagine the world without animals.

234 - ritz crackerz

2011-03-05T10:20:00.003+08:00

If want to ban , pls ban something that are really bothering the entire community . Ban the mat rempit , mat Pet ( drug addicts) and mat lepak (loafers) from the cities. There is no need to ban hookah found in those middle eastern concept cafes & restaurants. If smoking hookah is dangerous then put the general surgeon warning signs on them. Have an open area or smoking zone if shops are contravening the No Smoking Act. Even inside the Parliament , MPs are smoking like nobody business. Why not ban Chinese restaurants from selling shark fin soup? Shark fin soup is equally bad but there is no ban. City Halls should clean up their town and to make their respective city/town clean , beautiful and free from flooding.

- Submitted by johanssmKhunPana on Thursday, February 24th, 2011.

the best response.

ever.

it sucks that rayceal's holga pictures take forever to be developed/produced.

i'm pretty sure the pictures are awesome.

coz,

well, there were 2 awesome fridays spent.

and another one saturday spent a week before.

i'm exhausted to the brim.

gonna finish my history, and then work on my 3 essays.

i can feel the anticipation rushing to my fingers!

i'm gonna be on a roll.

233 - i'm the fury in your bed.

2011-03-01T21:51:00.003+08:00

it is currently 9.51

now it's 9.55.

i'm still pretty much struck in awe that it's the first of march.

the start of the never ending piles of work.
no holidays.

just work.

like, 3 essays and 1 major presentation.

can you just feel the joy?

i've got a feeling.

jinx!

last week, was definitely my wtf week.

tiring, hectic and different.

i'd like that.

13 more weeks.

eagerly and bitterly anticipating for that moment.

"i've been thinking about what to do with my future,

i could be a mud doctor,

checking out the earth underneath."

- party with children, ratatat.

232; double you tea eff.

2011-02-22T22:45:00.004+08:00

"you have inadequate breasts".

monday was my wtf day.

it was just like *bam!*

like how my face was hit by a ball...

then half of it was just numb and i laughed it off.

on the floor.

catastrophes can make your days so much more interesting.

i wrote a poetry quiz almost 6 hours ago, and my wrists are still in pain.

ouch.

and i absolutely hate it when i forget bringing my earphones.

and the fact that it hurts a little bit when i sit on my left butt cheek.

and i think i'm going to read fight club again, until i remember every chapter, so that i would be able to slice this mother up into little pieces and the concept just becomes parasitical on my brain.

here's a picture of me and seal when we were disco skating :)

that was definitely a day to remember.

i know this is a late picture, but here's me and joshua ho jiah jian.

another definite day to remember. one long ass day.

i just realized that i haven't really posted up much about the havocs in my life.

like i had any.

the biggest one was undoubtedly chicken pox.

my valentine's day was spent by counting the amount of couples in pyramid, and in about less than 20 minutes, there were more than 50 couples... disgusting.

it's ironic though coz hanif and me were one of the couples, haha.

hui xian's birthday was really fun though, i spent so much time eating and dancing and singing at the same time, it was really tiring.

and then rayceal coming over for lunch, and my dad making silly jokes and her laughing at it, then making origami and meeting her dad in le meridien, and checking the hilton out.

talking to ilya and andriana until like 3 am in the morning, and ilya giving us "laughgasms".

eating pepper lunch, watching no strings attached and drinking slurpee with andriana and rayceal was one of the best fridays i've ever spent, and in addition taking pictures, which have to take like 3 weeks to check out. and whatever comes after that, was nevertheless good as well :)

the random jokes ilya and kelvin pull off in lunch.

and a lot more than i can't really think of right now.

i told myself i'll sleep early because i've been coming late to school now.

who told them to change the time from 8.30 to 8? that's just a decision gone wrong.

it's sad that i take less pictures now.

the camera is in my hands, i just don't know what to take.

i shall elaborate more on the crap that's been passing me by soon.

saturday.

231; a playlist

2011-02-19T17:39:00.004+08:00

out of 700 somethings in my music library, here are 13 songs.

it's a great way to pass time, trust me.

anywho,

this would be one of those idle weekends where i don't really have much to do.

i'm not very good at making the best out of it.

i just made an origami of a lily, then made 3 more and gathered mine with my sister's, made stems from old newspaper and gave a paper flower bouquet to my mom :)

it's currently 6PM and i'm actually pretty hungry.

230 - 5103

2011-02-08T19:27:00.003+08:00

since school starts tomorrow, here's 23 things about me.

my full name is too long for my passport.
i walk around the house when i brush my teeth.
i went around a mall barefoot.
my favorite color changes over time. it's been turquoise for a while.
want to see me cry? make me watch the first part of up.
i've had a cat since i was a foetus.
domino's called me just now to check if i had my pizza. wait, no, this isn't about me.
i cried because my laptop crashed before.
i love the aztecs... because of the human sacrifice. (it's sick, i know.)
i think tie dying is ironic for hippies because of the immense amount of water used in the process.
the only thing i can draw is a batch of flowers.
my favorite kardashian sister is kourtney.
i want to own a baby goat farm, and i'm not kidding.
i have a cow and i petted it, and i'm seriously not kidding.
the only game i can only play is bejeweled.
i swallowed a rambutan seed before.
my favorite and least liked mode of transportation is by train.
the best kind of shopping is stationery shopping. i can never stop.
it's been 3 years since i've done tennis, and i still can't do a service.
i got hit on by a flight steward when i was 11.
i love love love love love andy warhol.
i have 2 paper bags full of movie tickets, letters, cards, boarding passes, crap load of memories.
the only reason why i said 23 is because 23 x 10 = 230 and it's the 230th post and i'm in grade 12 functions and completely dysfunctional at it because i can't even do a simple negative plus positive or vice versa and have to rely on my calculator for that.

being quarantined for 2 weeks will definitely drive you psychologically disturbed.

seriously.

on a side note - i just found out that almond is a male.

I'M GONNA START MAKING HAMSTER BABIES MKAY?

(well i hope it's true because at first i thought almond was a guy, then we were told that she's actually a girl, but now it seems that almond is male, like for real. so i was right in the first place, and we called him a she this whole time and got depressed that's why he's fat. that's just a hypothesis really)

229; they stare at me while i crave you.

2011-02-02T20:43:00.003+08:00

yeah, the phone rang.

it wasn't you.

i miss you.

228 - to get a little bit of your attention.

2011-02-01T22:19:00.003+08:00

i think i'm one of those people.

you know, who never took any vaccines.

yeah sure, i've had shots.

but i guess not the chicken pox vaccine.

coz i'm currently recovering from one.

that wasn't me. this is just an example. the kid is so sad :(

i'm the weird case.

i only had half of that.

i don't even look like i have chicken pox now.

heck, it's like i was never sick!

very suspicious.

maybe i'm the chicken pox monster.

well whatever, point is, if you have it, it's not fatal.

if you don't have it yet, good luck trying to avoid it. especially when you're oooold.

because up to now, me and my sister have no idea how she got it in the first place.

and my theory is how the older you are, the worse it is.

e.g. my sisters and i. i have no pox scars on my face!!!

yet.

the funnier thing is,

a few days before she got it, i brought up the topic of chicken pox while we were just randomly talking, waiting for our parents.

and then, BAM! she's viral.

badabeembadaboom, i got it.

and missed a week of school.

one of the worst things, ever.

my final semester and i'm missing grade 12 functions and i don't even get the slightest idea of when negative infinity is approached.

don't get it? me neither.

so what did i do for one week at home?

nothing so significant or life changing, actually.

it was more of what i couldn't do.

couldn't go out, shower, sit wherever i want to, touch whatever i want to, scratch the poxes and hug anyone :(

and i had to take my medicine every 2 hours, and it makes me forget whether or not i've taken it or not so it makes me all paranoid when i want to take it.

and i had to angle myself when i want to sleep.

and i had fever for one day.

BUT IT'S ALL OVER NOW :D

i can shower, and oh my god, don't shower for a week and you finally find the simple pleasures in showering.

i even made a freakin' haiku while i was at it.

it was so rejuvenating.

i would just really like a body scrub now.

and a fish spa.

whole body fish spa would do too.

my dad, however, thinks i'm still contagious and untouchable so i won't be able to go out. just yet.

I CRAVE FOR THE CONTAMINATED FRESH AIR.

i want to get out and buy a lot of things just for the sake of it!

i mean, i was so bored i was looking at forever 21 online.

had to keep the shopping urge all bottled up.

and it sucked so much when i saw the vampire weekend cd that i wanted right there in front of me and i couldn't buy it.

and i can't find the phoenix cd anywhere.

it's amazing.

it's ridiculous.

i spent the whole morning cutting up little alphabets for the psychology brain assignment. gotta get that done and over with!

and the previous days watching movies and making origami.

now my room is filled with origami decorations.

i need to get out to get the glow in the dark cats, and stars.

cats in space. how epic is that? all that in my room :D

i know school is now the core of hell or anything unsugar and spice, but i kinda really miss my friends.

and the fact that i haven't seen them for a week, and adding another week because of the chinese new year holidays are driving me nutssssssss.

especially hanif :(

i'm all clean and i feel unviral, but now, they're gone.

OH WELL. time to get some work done for me then.

here's something to listen then :)

p.s. if you feel like reading, read fight club by chuck palahniuk. if you already read it, tell me what else to reaaaaad!

227 - ally almond.

2011-01-20T11:26:00.002+08:00

Name: Almond
Gender: Female
Age: Unknown

Personality: Active but silent

My little baby!
She's such an adorable little thing. I wish I could get her a friend... or mate. And I'll have little hamster babies!!!!!!

But then the room would smell like hamster poo and pee.

Almond peed and took a dump on Rayceal :)

Smart girl, isn't she?

Can't wait for March 25th!!!

226 - knock me out with a baseball bat.

2011-01-16T14:56:00.005+08:00

i came back a week ago and i'm still lazy to write in here.

school is being a big fat walnut, because it's so crowded and messed up in too many ways.

i don't like my classes crowded.

maybe it's because i had a history class with only 9 people...

and i have just been struck with a financial crisis.

550 bucks worth of books, and i only have 200 bucks.

teehee.

makes me wonder what and how much i spent the past few months.

nevertheless, i still would be getting a couple from 2nd hand books.

so, yay world :)

let's see what catastrophe taking functions, english, civilisations and psychology will be like.

anywho, some little pieces of what i did during my time at home.

drinking hot chocolate in bandung

meeting my mom's high school friend

going to the "beach" which my dad assumed was the place he went to with his friends in the 70's in the rain.

being the awesome aunt and playing with my nephew, whom, by the way, only likes me :) i swear to god, i didn't do anything.

being ~~with~~ a monkey at my mom's friends gathering thingamabob.

taking pictures with a polar bear, a monkey and a squirrel.

that's only some. that does not sum up to the 19 days i spent.

i did gain weight, that's for sure. first and last thing i ate was hoka hoka bento (Y)

i ate roti bakar madtari in bandung and oh my god, there was literally a mountain of cheese on the plate. it got sickening, but it tasted pretty good.

and obviously, i ate seafood. but i didn't eat GM :(

it's been a while since i had pt rasa ice cream, then my mom told me how it was like her favourite place since the 70's... and how it was hard for my dad to get ice cream back then.

and how my dad had kfc for the first time. and it was paid by his lecturer.

weird.

i met my friend whom i haven't seen ever since i moved to malaysia purely by coincidence in PIM.

and it was one of those moments where i didn't know what to say.

i was actually deciding whether or not i should go up to her.

it's like you just know that you know that person.

coincidences are funny.

i feel like having ice cream and pisang goreng altogether.

my sister has chicken pox!

which is why it's all a mess at home because my mom stayed with her in bandung.

pity the woman, every time it's her holiday she gets sick.

hope she gets to scratch all of it soon :D

went to sayfol last tuesday and it was a surprise for myself.

haven't seen those people for so long :)

i hope they do have their prom.

it's so nice to see how many people remember me :')

the next day was a pretty long one.

rushed to eat mcd breakfast with hanif, then we watched tv and got too lazy to go out but we eventually did.

because i had to go the curve to meet ilya to buy mgmt tickets which turn out to be only available on saturday...

so we ate kenny rogers and met hui xian! yay world :)

but it all came tumbling down when they decided to watch paranormal activity 2.

it was pretty freaky, but i actually thought it would be scarier than that.

after that, we decided to go to borders and read random books out loud.

and then ate mcdonalds ice cream.

and we separated and i went back to the hostel.

i need to buy conditioner.

and i have a very strong urge to buy books right now.

225; fin

2010-12-20T10:18:00.002+08:00

i have 7 more hours to my flight.

the two weeks that passed were more than delightful :)

even though i had planned a couple of things that weren't done yet.

but, whatever, there's a whole free line-up next year!

so, what did i do?

batting cages with hanif :)
going to PD with the family just for seafood lunch
hanging out with my sisters in mid valley and eating sushi for lunch
following my mom to pick up my dad
being pony enthusiasts with the syazas and hui xian :)
walking around bukit bintang but getting nothing in return
reminiscing indonesian food with the family
being stepped on, resulting to the wreckage of my slippers and getting new sandals :)
mall-hopping with hanif, which was absolutely fun :)
getting my hands on bejeweled! (Y)
watching grey's and getting amazed by its brilliance
meeting a whole bunch of people who i wasn't even close to
rampaging yumi's house
watching megamind and shopped with galuh
playing tennis in the very cool (as in literally) weather
meeting mahla after three years! and jaz too
watched tron and sat there in amazement because of the animation and the eargasmic daft punk soundtrack
bought a $49 pair of jeans in F21!
walked from mahla's to the curve
being stuffed from major food exploration
expanding my collection of archie comics
packing unconsciously and eating subway for breakfast

obviously all of that has its consequences.

i'm declaring myself broke even though i still have a couple to spend... but i shall leave that and spend my mom's money instead.

teehee!

but yea, i'm awfully tired and despite declaring a few days "a lazy day", i never actually had one. so i'm gonna use these 19 days to sleep and be lazy and get fat.

i'm kidding about getting fat.

but i'm looking forward to getting new stuff.

like bags.

well, i'm 11 days early but

happy new years!

and merry christmas :)

i'm seriously going to miss my crystal castles marathon :(

224 - derezzed

2010-12-07T08:53:00.003+08:00

Sue the spiders
Sink the Welsh
Stab your facebook
Sell sell sell
Undercooked
Overdone
Mass adulation not so funny
Poisoned honey
Pseudo science
Silly money
You're my honey.

-- Flash Delirium, MGMT

for the past 2 weeks i have realized that during a journey, the strokes is one of the most suitable bands to listen to.

which means, i have to buy their album because my dad thinks today's music is crap.

the strokes is not necessarily "today's music" is it?

so.

november has been one of the most stressful months i've ever been through in my short 16 years of life.

but at least i got through it all, and even with all the complaining and the tears, i finished all my assignments and everything i needed to do, without even asking for an extension.

now that is what i call an accomplishment.

told my selfish, hard-headed self that i could do it, and i proved it.

i deserve a cookie, yes i do :)

screwed up both my final presentations!

because i was not ready, and did not feel like kicking ass.

at least i didn't fail :)

and i had so much fun. i mean, who gets to be princess diana in their presentation, wear a tiara and talk in a poor british accent? and who gets to present their monologues about how chaotic a date is with 'girls just want to have fun' in the background? that's right, ME :)

when i was doing my final assignment for drama, i realized that i'm capable of talking for 13 minutes non-stop. which is somewhat disturbing.

it's either i have too much to say, or the amount of bullshit i produce is immeasurable.

and to finalize that day, i killed a cockroach. i don't know whether i should be proud or disgusted.

but it was a disturbing heroic moment.

what's another disturbing thing?

people stealing my yoghurt. that's right, and it's not only one, the stealer claimed 2 of them hers.

in my whole life, i've only borrowed people's things without telling them. and no, you can't borrow someone's yoghurt because you can't give me back the same yoghurt as it would be disgusting and i do not want someone to puke out their yoghurt to return it, thus taking my yoghurt is an act of stealing.

that bitch.

i was carrying a bag full of crap on that day, walked in the dreadful sun, being completely paranoid because i didn't know how to get from the ktm station to pyramid, climbed and went down the creepy stairs to get to the other side, went through a complete stranger who had his face (and his face only) as his wallpaper on his phone and asking me for my number, walked from one side of to pyramid to the other to get my pens, snapple and yoghurt, realized that the pair of shoes that i wanted is only on 10% discount, walked from pyramid to school with a heavier bag, panicking about biology and math, spent the rest of my time with hanif with my bag pulling my shoulder down, talked about cats and talked with raindrops falling on our heads, came back to the hostel only to realize that i have so little time left to study for my biology and math, put my yoghurt inside the fridge, had a long ass day cramming information in school and wrote my exams the day after that, walked back to the hostel in disappointment in the rain, read each and every page for history and waking up at 7 to sum it all up, cramed 10 supposed essay answers to a paragraph each, spent the night with aparna, andriana and rayceal, woke up at 7 in the morning with hunger, hoped to find my kiwi yoghurt in the fridge...

and it was gone.

in the time span of a bipolar 48 hours, my yoghurt was gone. my yoghurt was all i needed and it was gone.

i deserved every molecule of that yoghurt!

oh wells.

the exams were a total pain in the ass, literally.

i sat there for more than 2 hours - and a record set, 3 and a half for my biology paper.

why?

i took my sweet time doing my math paper, ended up forgetting a 5-mark question on trigonometry identities, which by the way, do not make any sense.

i took 3 hours to write everything for my biology paper, and panicked. therefore, forgetting one of the simplest things i have learned in bio: punnet squares. those were like 4 easy marks right there.

i took 1 and a half hours to write my final 40-mark essay for history, which i had to write in a rush. i think i wrote a total of 1000+ words worth of crap. ha.

which is why, me being done doesn't mean i'm ready.

well screw all the fake smiles i've to paint across my face, i'm done.

and now i shall wait in anxiety for my results to crush my enthusiasm for living :(

i'm surely going to miss the graduates though.

includes that lazy twat aparna. which is weird because she always barges in my room for her grand entrance and sometimes it's just to tell rayceal that she wants to borrow a pen.

*insert wtf look here*

seriously. this is what i had to handle throughout the semester!

but yea, i spent the night of my last exam with her, rayceal and andriana for a G.N.O.

doesn't that sound official? haha, that stands for girls night out... yeah.

we watched harry potter, and all of us cried when *SPOILER* dobby died. all of us except for the emotionless cow = aparna.

i cried when *SPOILER* hedwig died. i don't know why. i just think she plays an important role in harry's life.

then we ate korean food for dinner and were the loudest bunch, talking about... stuff that i do not remember.

but, the highlight of the night was when aparna and i went to jusco to buy bubble tea, since the bubble tea shop beside the korean food cafe thing was out of bubbles. okay, what type of bubble tea shop is out of bubbles, seriously? so, we went to jusco, and we saw pies! i like pies, and so does she. we went to buy pies and the lady was so nice to us and gave us free pies :)

after that, with burning hunger and thirst, we queued up in this very long line. coincidentally, when it was aparna's turn, the cash register was out of paper, so that took me like, an extra 5 minutes queuing. and oh my god, when it was my turn, i only had 50 and she had no change at all. so i had to wait for another 5 to get my change back -___-

took us like 20 minutes... just to pay.

it's disgusting!

i hate waiting in queues especially when there are other counters available, they're just not opened, which by the way is very stupid! i mean like, isn't it good for them because then there would be more cashiers and it keeps the customers going and not leaving them pissed off, like me.

well that was my experience with aparna.

now that the holidays have started, i have 13 days vacant until i smell Indonesian air.

and here i am again, trying to make it everyday an "extraordinary day". talk about corny.

but seriously, it would work!

like, my mom just came in and told me we're going to PD today.

YAY WORLD.

the beach, that's what i need.

the waves crashing on my feet and the sweet taste of breeze.

and the seafood i'm going to be eating later.

i'm sorry crabs, i'm going to be relentless for a bit and eat all of your lovely cousins. but that's alright, you're all going to heaven anyway :)

but it's 11:18 and i haven't showered and we're all not doing anything so i don't know if we're seriously going or not.

i shall talk about my "extraordinary" 14 days on the 20th.

but last and not least, my supposed daily routine of photoshop every morning.

it's ridiculously obvious, but that's the true magic of photoshop. TEEHEE.

223; es-ka-peh

2010-11-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

i tend to listen to crystal castles when i need some good beats.

it works!
this is just one of them :)

this was the full moon on the 21st, which apparently is the "blue moon" or something of that sort.

if i'm wrong, don't blame me. i read that in yahoo.

but it was super pretty, and totally blew my mind.

sad that you can't really see it properly.

i have exactly 5 more days of school to face for this year.

wednesday, thursday, friday, tuesday and wednesday.

and then my school life in 2010 ends.

2010 is going to end.

holy mother of god.

i can't wait to throw away all of these useless/useful information out of my brain!

i can't wait to satisfy my hunger that have been aching for indonesian food.

i can't wait to splurge all of my money on shoes i'll never wear.

i just want to get it all over with.

just one little tip for those who are going to choose their subjects,

NEVER take history, biology, drama and functions at the same time.

unless you want to end up like me who writes crap on all of my assignments, gain eyebags because i've been working on assignments all night long for many many days and talking bullshit on my blog.

but seriously, don't.

save yourself from eternal pit of hell.

unless you don't do your work.

which is extremely stupid.

or you procrastinate every minute of your every day.

which is extremely disgusting.

what would you get?

a pile of unfinished work that you don't even want to see, or touch. and you'll fail.

and the cycle will start again.

and that cycle, is a very ugly cycle.

which is why i regain my conscious stress-free self by eating ice cream, spending time with hanif, listening to crystal castles, playing in the heavy rain and do not devote my whole day to doing work.

i hate panicking.

it doesn't do good for the soul.

somebody stole my yoghurt.

that person shall pay.

i want my yoghurt.

it calms me down.

i think.

i need some cheese.

macaroni and cheese.

the past few occurrences of my life has brain-washed everything education-related.

aren't we all going to be passing our exams?

222

2010-11-12T01:11:00.005+08:00

YOUR SEX IS ON FIRE!

Well, obviously, I'm going nuts.

I don't know how many words I've written tonight.

I don't know how much time is wasted on this blog post.

According to Ezine Articles, it is estimated that as much as 95 % of the people are prone to procrastination. Amongst them, 20 % of them are chronic procrastinators (2008).

That's a big fuck-you to APA citation.

SHALALALA.
That's for screwing up my brain on History and Biology!

I would love to do anything to get hold on a sleeping potion,
which allows me to sleep from 18th November onwards.
Until when? I haven't decided. Teehee.

My brain cells are catastrophic!

221, the stress value.

2010-11-09T14:03:00.002+08:00

this is what i do in math class.

it's currently the 9th day of november.

and the past 8 days have not been the least stressful for me.

2 more weeks until everything just stops.

3 more weeks until everything comes back again.

i don't like november.

i wish i could escape to Fiji.

and sleep under the sun, on a hammock.

then dip my feet to the water and let them sink into the sand.

maybe it would be so much better if i just float, and the currents can take me somewhere new.

if only.

220. yes, i like pina coladas.

2010-10-31T19:16:00.006+08:00

Friday, October 29

trick-or-treat, bitches!

i was the weirdo.

Weirdo meets Pirate and Ladybug.

Hippie. Weirdo. Gypsy. Hula. Adam Lambert.

Friday, October 22

with the most amazing date, ever.

only the best picture, ever.

with 3 gorgeous darlings.

the hyun kyu pose.

with my banana.

pictures are such liars.

they never capture bad moments.

i'm not saying these were bad moments... but i'm saying that there are always bad moments.

the moments i just shared were lovely.

but there is always a story behind every picture.

can't wait for my 4-day holiday.

and if counting lagoon, that would be 5 days!

in 2 months, it would be the end of 2010.

219.

2010-10-22T00:37:00.004+08:00

Watched the sunset on October 6th. Loved it. Love you :]

Prom is in 18 hours.
Half of my semester just flashed, like that.

The most stressful night of my life - last night.
Lesson learnt, the hard way. Always to save your work... Always. It's better than losing all of it in just one second of your life.

My world has taken a full rotation.
Marks in biology are dropping... while my marks in history are increasing.
I no longer believe that sweat is disgusting, therefore making me a sports woman. Joining the girl's football team, but ended up getting new tennis shoes.

I am guiltily addicted to Milo, therefore being extremely dead without it every morning.

So embedded in the world of school.
So little time dedicated to living.
I want to live, just for a little. Maybe I should take that chance.

Legendary.

I shall make this year's prom that way.

Change is a horrifying, terrible thing yet it can create such beauty.
The simple wonders of life.

I am a cat.

I'll erase my expectations.

218 - pure negligence.

2010-09-30T17:51:00.011+08:00

i want to laugh at myself so bad.

i have no idea how many times i've wanted to write here... but never found the time. school is continuously lugging me around with so much work. i'm way too occupied!

well, to sum it all up, the past... err, 3 weeks? have been pretty alright, i guess. i did a couple of things that i hardly/never did before. which is pretty awesome because it was just one month, you seeeee.

okay. let's just culminate all those things into a small (i can't promise you that), simple list.

i had my first ever mime show! it was alright. i didn't screw up anything :D except for the part where i was suppose to give my 'lollipop' to guan kit. but other than that i think we all did great! :) after that, i went to pyramid with andriana, rayceal and hanif with my mime make-up. lol, a kid was staring at me and calling her mom but the mom was unresponsive hahahaha :P
I DIDN'T GO TO SINGAPORE :( it was very disappointing, but my raya holidays weren't so bad. but that's another story :)
I HAVE PROM IN EXACTLY 22 DAYS AND I HAVE NO DRESS. this is horrible. i have no dress, but only shoes, i don't know what i'm going to do with my hair, my make-up and it's so stupid how it's in the middle of the freggin semester. ALL THANKS TO YOU ANONYMOUS WHO COMPLAINED TO SCHOOL -___- even after prom I have to do my assignments. but yea, it's a masquerade :) and i haven't paid for it yet. teeeheee.
speaking of prom, rayceal and i went to pyramid to go dress-hunting. we didn't find anything! we ended up chatting and talking and eating pretzels instead. all thanks to her, i'm addicted to the caramel almond pretzel :] and it's GOOOD.
i babysat 2 turtles over the raya holidays :D they were so adorable (but yes, they were so freggin heavy to carry). they're mr brims' + ms data's. they were so cute to take care of. of course it was a little bit of a hassle, but i didn't mind it. they're really good climbers and they can really run! they ran around my house... i even almost lost smallie. oh, and their names are biggie and smallie. their sizes do correspond to their names :P biggie sneezed and i fell in love with him, hahahhaa. but yea, i got emotionally attached to them... and i was just so sad when i had to give them back :( i even had a dream about them.
there's only one word i could describe my first day of raya: CHAOTIC. i went house-hopping for around 12 hours. 6 houses and in each house i managed to eat something different. HA! there was siomay, bakso, rendang, tekwan, roti jala and lastly sate. but it was awesome. i got to go to elianne's & elisha's open house and i met some of my old friends. it was nice to see familiar faces :) and i went to putra's & jasmine's and it was whoa! i love their house :)
second day of raya was random. found out that my 10-year-old cousin has a blackberry and i played cooking with a first grader. it's been a while! it was getting on my nerves a little though because she wouldn't let me go! hahaha. we then went to putrajaya (it's very random) because we were bored of being at home. ha, it was fun taking pictures on the streets. would love to do it again :) oh and it was the perfect skyline, there were a few stars, a full moon and a planet :)
went to ezzat's house on the third day of raya with my sister. we picked up darius, his friend and marissa along the way. it was really short but fun :) ezzat recorded this video with stop motion, which was a great attempt :) i got to meet people, again, haha, but the brief meeting with them was great. it rained really heavily for a moment though. a tree fell down and blocked the road. kuh-ree-pee.
then, i just remembered my past obsession with pokemon. and these weird ass wasp-like bugs came to my room and reproduced in seconds with the light or something. they multiplied all of a sudden! weird. and i was thinking if i should get a motorcycle's licence or not... the thought of having a vespa calms my mind somehow :) OH AND THEN. i was walking in bangsar on my own, and there was this old chinese man talking on his phone. i stared at him as he angled himself to the wall and he pulled down his pants, and took a leak. right outside the walls of a mosque. DISGUSTING. and purely shameless.
the next day, i went to pyramid with my sister and mom. we were there for quite a while. tried out shoes and what not and bought white shirts! :) what are they for? you'll see :) we bought a couple of other stuff too... ate korean food and drank bubble teaaa :D that day was just me rediscovering the usage of the internet... the media section. hahaha, and i started watching skins! and i watched jennifer's body with my sister... it wasn't as great as i thought. it was pretty lame, actually. ahhaha.
HUI XIAN SLEPT OVER AT MY HOUSE!!! it's been like what, 4 years since we had one? hahaha, it was great! she tried to surprise me but it didnt work (because she sucks :P)! teeheee. we talked and then chatted and ate a little bit. and guess what's the white shirt for? TIE-DYES BABY! man, that was really messy and yet so fun. i can't explain the whole thing, but yes, it was great! i thought my shirt was going to turn out horrible coz we were all so impatient of the result but i like it now :) i mixed it with pink and blue. hui xian had splashes of pink, blue and purple all over :D it was really fun making it but really hectic too. my fingers turned purple for 3 days straaight! it was like freggin frostbite. we did the tie-dying in my room and created a total catastrophe, haha. dinner was really funny, my parents are really amused by her. we had a movie, err, marathon. we stayed up to watch eurotrip and mr & mrs smith. and the next day! we took underwater pictures! it was fun trying, but hardly had any good pictures. our eyes were like contaminated by chlorine. it hurt so much. we were there for around 2 hours taking pictures and talking. we bubbled the song 'baby', and totally did not act like our age :P after showering, we watched and weeped (just me, actually) to p.s. i love you and she went home :( hui xian, if you're reading this, i miss you LOADS!
the next day was my chilled day. i watched movies, played with the turtles and discovered their abilities :] and did my homework... haha. but on friday! i got up early for my "adventure". took the KTM, texted rayceal telling her that i'm going to sunway, then took the bus, stopped at pyramid, bought cupcakes, walked to college and met rayceal. what for? to surprise hanif! :] it kinda worked, i guess. it was brief, but at least i got to see him :) and then i took the lrt, then the monorail and met up with daniel, hasbi, ali and armani in farenheit. it was fun hanging out with them :) i miss their randomness. we were all happily holding hands and walked around pavilion. we even wished in the wishing well! but i had a little cramp mishap hahaha. then i took the monorail home. it felt so good at the end... because i only spent 21 bucks :) i was then the only child for the night :(
on saturday! i went to qalila's open house but it turned out i was the only one who came... hahahaha. but it was alright :) i met a couple of new people and familiar faces. i haven't been to that house for 3 freggin years. i have to say nothing changed though haha. i had so much rendang there! i don't know why. i was like a rendang monster and kept eating and eating. my mom told her that the next time she's going to go to her house is when she's getting married. cracked me up :P
on sunday, i had my first tennis class after the month break. damn, it was refreshing. but it was also the last day taking care of biggie and smallie, so i let them out the whole night in my hostel room. i got a little freaked when they stopped moving though hahaha. i curled my hair! and it wasn't as good as i expected. so there's no way for me to get my hair permed :( i can just keep dreaming about that, haha.
on monday, we started a new unit for drama and its voice and oh my god, i'm losing mine. it was a lot of talking and i kinda miss all that noise... haha. after school was pretty hectic because i had to finish all my work due on the next day (which was quite a lot) and see hanif after that. and i did it. i'm so proud of myself :') hahaha. and why did i have to finish all my work? it was because i had to go to a mooncake festival dinner the hostel arranged. at first i was like screw this shit.
but you know what? it was awesome possum. i was at a table of people who ate a lot and i was super duper hungry at that time and so, we ALL ate FIVE rounds of food :) and bits of mooncake, hahaha. it was pretty fun and we all got lanterns :) and there was this uber humongous cat!!! it was really great... i just crashed and burn after all that.
on the next day, it was a girl's day in :] spent it with andriana, rayceal and aparna. it was really refreshing and new because we got to know each other better. we chatted like little girls, it was like a sleepover without the sleeping. then i stayed up to around 5 in the morning to watch skins. and 2 hours after sleeping, i woke up and had breakfast with hanif :)
pancakes + the one you love = perfection!
we talked and ate and at around 9 something we left. i was taking care of the registry for the parent teacher meeting. oh my god, i never knew sitting for around 5 hours non-stop can really drive you insane. it's weirdly exhausting! my mom only came around 3 something and i followed (or lead, more likely) her to meet my teachers and i found out that i'm not a bad student after all. teehee :) after all that, my mom and i went to pyramid. got cheese and had sushi for lunch. and it was happy hour, so i ate loads of sushi :D my mom sent me back and i hung out with the lovely(/ies) aparna, rayceal and andriana. we were talking about storm troopers and how unreasonable it was that aparna doesn't know what storm troopers are. she didn't even know who YODA was! so weird. i had a kick-ass 8 hour crash on the bed :)

SIS Idol in one word: legendary! the performances were great, even though i screwed up our performance. deedee won! :] she deserves it. i feel that my hosting was a lot better than performance night and it was much easier, my nervousness level decreased! weee. hahaha, it was fun hosting it with andrew because of his puns and witty jokes. mr b really rocked it out and aparna can really singggg! everyone did a fantastic, spectacular job. even though the crowd didn't turn out to be as big as last time.
on the next day (friday), i made marshmallow baby! and as weird as this sounds, i made a good marshmallow baby with rina. his name is Chewie :] oh and i wore my tie-dye shirt. as it was dress down day :) my mom was mad at me (or at least i think she was) because of coming back to the hostel late at night (and the lovely ms elaine called her -__-) and my sister said that my mom was coming in 30 minutes. i got off early, going to buy seventeen but then i couldn't find it. then i coincidentally met my sister and shaadhoon in the bubble tea stall, and i conveniently followed her. yay. we went to bangsar and guess what i founddd?

it was the highlight of the day :D because i was so tired and crashed on my bed at home... and i woke up with a text notifying me that Eyang Hanafi passed away :( she was like my third grandma... i feel so horrendous not visiting her when i had the time in june. in the bright side, i had bbq for dinner and caramel pudding for dessert :] oh and in the evening i accompanied my sister to seri kota and the chinese old man stopped us because we had that reusable bag to use for shopping. we gave up explaining it to him why we have to carry it because of his age, lol. and they don't know cheddar! what the hell.
tried to distract myself by watching elmo's interview on youtube and it was just so adorable!!! i love elmo so much now :) and i watched gossip girl and grey's too.
i woke up the next morning with the most horrible dream of smallie's shell coming out and biggie on the verge of dying... and in the afternoon i watched Marley & Me which reduced me to tears.
and the highlight of saturday? i found nerds and laffy taffy sold in big packs in great eastern's cold storage!! :)
tennis was ultimately horrible because i was half awake/sleepy the whole time. and the sun just killed my eyesight. had dinner in a mamak and i don't know how hard i stressed not to make the mee goreng spicy. thank god it didn't come out spicy. tried the shaker fries... aren't that great. got back to the hostel and had a sudden sleepover with rayceal, aparna and andriana! it was really fun but crammed. hahaha, andriana and i slept so late and couldn't stop talking. we were laughing and screaming so loud, for absolutely no reason and it was really out of the blue. awesome possum :]
received a 50 bucks worth of starbucks vouchers from mr brims coz i took care of their turtles. it was nice, i'm gonna keep that for a while. it's like, expiring in 2011! weee. and one of my ear holes started bleeding... weird. and i could play come as you are!! yay :] there was pancake sale on tuesday, and it was awesome. and then there was root beer sale on the next day, that was awesome too. but before we go to wednesday, i went to pyramid with rayceal, andriana, aparna and sahba. it was fun, getting all the stuff for prom and going around. ate KFC... and it didn't taste as good as i expected. but i got snapple! speaking of which, i'll get myself some :D

i think i wrote so much, that i'm not sure what i'm missing out. but right now, i'm stuck with the chaos of school. i've got the school fair and prom which is having a very low turn-up :(

watching schindler's list in history class... heartbreaking. tearing me up little by little :(

math fucked my brain up completely.

everything is just so chaotic!

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two hundred seventeen.

2010-09-06T00:12:00.000+08:00

let's enlighten the post with pictures because i haven't written here for like 2 weeks! :D

these were taken in Ikea after our session of "Hide & Seek".

i don't know how i remembered this all of a sudden but hanif pushed a pull door in the petrol station and everyone in the car laughed. that was funny :)

the 23rd until the 29th of august was pretty tiring to sum it all up.

on monday, had the hostel august babies to celebrate their birthdays - including me. it was one of the dullest celebrations the hostel had so far. i swear to god, they have issues. it's hardly ever fun.

what was actually fun was talking to hanif before all that happened :)

received my second drama slot and i'm doing it with guan kit and reuben. a day at the doctor's.

on tuesday, it was yumi's birthday! and i didn't eat sahur on that day again, i think. which was why i had the crazy cravings. and my left foot was being a dysfunctional bitch. but later that night i stayed up to talk to the guys - hasbi, ezzat and kresno. that was fun :D i miss them loads.

i realized that i wouldn't want to consider him as a friend any more. he has gone to faggot world with his best friend. oh well.

on wednesday, i was welcomed to school by mr avila shouting at me for being late. that time of the month again, sir? finalized my second slot for the mime show and i think this one is going to be a big success :) my favourite slot. i think it's because i get to be an annoying little kid, afraid of needles. wait, that's who i really am - ha.

buka-ed with hanif at hasra and we got insanely full! left us lazy and bloated. i was so full i wanted to cry. hahaha.

on thursday, it was cultural day and i went to school with my batik shorts and i love bandung shirt with an indonesian flag drawn on my hand. very patriotic :) . ironic thing is, my so-called 'cultural' outfit is like... my PJs. oh well.

finished my bio assignment! the amount of fun i had with drawing my organism will never equate the amount of fun i had writing my 5-page explanation of it.

BUT. i met hanif on the way to history class. that was nice :)

and my math test went great! so after school, andriana, deedee and i went to pyramid to chill a bit. we were mostly at jco where we just hijacked the couches and were as loud as the donut-making machines. it's like as if we owned the place. but it was really fun and relaxing, in an odd way.

deedee left and then hanif came. we then went around to search for a place to eat, which was horrible because every restaurant in pyramid was so full! but we ended up eating in MFM. good food, good food. i want it again now :(

it's funny because i was actually invited to my sister's and her friend's belated birthday celebration thing there on the same day, but it got cancelled. i guess i was too hyped up for it.

went back to school at around 8 only to find out we were too late to take our laptops. so i left my laptop in school... for... the holidays. but that's another story. we ended up talking in front of the school though, haha.

i was so tired, but i ended up sleeping pretty late because i was talking to andriana after i got back and we watched what happens in vegas and this one episode of how i met your mother which i haven't watched. we even had our little junk food fair :)

on friday, my mom picked us up and i went to camp or the proper word, pesantren, later on that day. how did i pack? i literally just threw in all of the stuff that i had to bring into the luggage - ha. so much for enthusiasm. i was most of the time talking to hui xian on msn anyway.

i literally had no idea where the camp was because i fell asleep while going there but the place wasn't so bad. it was a little bit cold.

our sleeping time was 10. and our phones were taken away at night. the horror!

but yeah, my sister, tania and i shared a room with 3 other kids.

we had tv, but the astro didn't work. and we had the advantage of having airconds! yay.

the kids to the other kids: WE HAVE TV!

my sister: don't tell them we have tv!

the kids to the other kids: WE DON'T HAVE A TV! WE LIED! I'm sorry we lied!

the funniest moment to have ever lived in that room.

the horriblest moment was when i laid my head on the pillow. the hardest pillow, ever. it was like laying my head on a bed of cement.

on saturday, i was still having camp. it was kind of a pain in the ass because i had to squeeze in nappy time. i think i kinda fell asleep when someone else was reading - teehee. sorry.

i just remembered sleeping... and doing flying fox. haha. it was pretty fun having tania as a room mate because she's got lots of stories and she's nice :)

i remembered having pisang goreng for snacks late at night and bihun goreng which got almost all of us stomach aches. pretty nasty coincidence.

i was going to head to sleep until the other people of the group came to the room to discuss what to do for the performance on the next day. pain in the ass, seriously.

and the kiddies made me milo! that was so sweet of them :)

on sunday, it was the last day of camp. oh my god, i have never felt so sleepy in my entire life. but yea, i guess it was okay. meeting up with the people whom i haven't met for a while and i got new friends. i also got trophies. yay world.

oh and i had to wear tudung the whole time. this is how i looked like.

but this wasn't taken during camp. it was way before that.

my mom and my sister picked us up and my mom said she wanted to go shopping at carrefour which was on the way. i told her to go to tesco because it had the seaweed thing but it was like crazy full! we ended up going to jusco setiawangsa and bought loads of things. included raya biscuits too :) it was pretty fun.

after iftar i went with my parents to the little kids' pesantren thing and it was super adorable.

a hall full of small little kids was like an overload of cuteness. they had this fashion show which was so freggin adorable. too bad the camera died halfway while i was taking the video.

me and my dad wanted to buy food but we lost the intention to eat because none of the arabic restaurants had shawarma and it was just really full in kampung baru.

my mom got really annoyed at the seri maya guards on that day, it was pretty annoying i have to agree. some guards are just made of muscles, not brains. but it was funny because my mom got annoyed at my dad too. ha.

fell asleep right after my body got comfortable on the bed.... until my sister called me to open the door for her -___- nice.

the next week, which is this week (depending when your week starts), was pretty ... alright. i received a truckload of assignments and my procrastinating mode is taking over my brain almost three quarters of the time. yay world to me.

on monday, i hung out with my eldest sister most of the times. i followed her to sunway to get my laptop and i told her the story of the previous night while she told me hers.

when i reached sunway, the school was closed. i was like holy mother of god. so i had to ask the person whom i pretend to like, my house mistress. and all of a sudden she appeared out of nowhere. and told me to go to the security guard.

it was 12, and coincidentally hanif finished his class at that time so, i hung out with him for 2 hours while my sister had class. we were mostly in the library looking at magazines and talking. but it was nice to see and hug him again :)

after that, my sister picked me up and we went to pyramid to get her shoes which she ended up not buying. we wanted to get my other sister's presents but then we figured we can buy it in klcc. it was raining on the way to hock choon. it rained pretty hard.

couldn't find snapple in hock choon :( i don't think it exists in this country any more! we were supposed to go to klcc but we didn't. my dad cancelled his tennis because of the heavy rain. so we ended up not buying my other sister's presents as well.

but yeah, spending time with my sister was pretty eventful. we haven't done that for a while.

i was actually supposed to go out with my sayfol friends but everyone got sick so it got cancelled. i was really excited though. i was supposed to sleepover qalila's :(

on tuesday, my sister, mom and i went to bangsar to buy baskin robbins and my mom went grocery shopping as well. half gallon all to ourselves and it's like 3 flavours! yay world. and i found wonka nerds! it was the best discovery of the whole day! :D

and then my mom gave me the dry ice from the baskin robbins. that was super fun, i had my evil laugh on! muahaa! then i talked about football players with hui xian and kaka was one of the main topics. i hate him, so bad. people are immune to his faggot face -___- and it reminded me of pepe, and his ugly face especially when it was against brazil. urgh.

went back to the hostel and had lots of laughs with ilya, andriana and rayceal because we were doing the whole tarot card thing. it was pretty... realistic. which was weird.

on wednesday, school started again... and another drama slot was given. nationalism. and i had to present my history assignment, yay. didn't go as planned though. i was looking at alice + olivia and i swear to god, i wish i could buy all of that. and marc jacobs too. and dkny. oh my god. i want to go shopping. i was so unproductive on that day.

went to orange to buka with hanif. i ate indomie. yay! i miss that thing. and then i found out they had baked cheese rice, which i am hoping to try very soon.

on thursday, i realized that rina was talking about performing for sis idol, not open mic. left me at a brink of killing her actually -__- but it kind of gave me the confidence to perform. i was really confused on that day, even got a little stressed out about it. so i ended up teaming with andriana and andra with the song better together by jack johnson. wrote my crappy bio test on that day and received my 2 test results. history was bad and math was a surprising result. pretty proud of myself :) i ate in the cafeteria for a change... and finished it. i guess i was a hungry monster on that day. on study period i was very lazy. and so, i played with clay. yay!

on friday, it was pretty typical in school. the sis idol audition went... alright, i guess? just that i was way too eager and sang it half a bar too early. haha. hui xian came over after school and we chatted a liiiittle bit. she came to the hostel and checked out my room, finally. she said it was nice, so yay :) after they left i met up with hanif for a bit. i figured i might as well leave because i didn't want to go back to hellhole since everyone left already. we went to the student centre and then we left coz mr owen and mr c appeared out of nowhere and the power got cut off. it was an insanely hot day too. i bid goodbye after being with him for an hour or so and my mom picked me up.

on that day, i found out that i lost weight even more... which was extremely disappointing. i'm already thin and now i'm getting thinner. i'm like, half of hanif's weight and it just seems like i'm all skin and bones. but i ate quite a lot on that day. maybe it's because i miss my mom's food :)

on saturday, i was checking out the things to do in singapore because my dad offered to go there, and i found out that you could have a wedding in the singapore zoo. i would totally do that. and then i ended up watching the first half of mean girls. i love mean girls :) it was hilarioussss. so after that, i showered and got ready to go to mid valley. waited a little bit and went to sentral coz hanif was picking me up from there. we watched grown ups and that was hilarious. i don't think there was never a moment where i didn't laugh. and i bought my sister's present. yay! we went around looking for cinnabon but there wasn't any so, yeah. i was pretty bummed that i had to go back, but at least i got to spend time with hanif :) went back home for iftar and we had pizza, yay! it was so funny because the national geographic documentary was on snakes and my mom went kuh-razay! i guess that's where i get my genes of shrieking at things i don't like from. stayed up purrrty darn late to do my assignments. crazy, but worth it.

on sunday (which is/was today) i woke up to my mom telling me that her friend who was our ex-neighbour gave birth to her second child! and she told us we're going chocolate shopping, so how could i resist? we did buy chocolate, indeed.

my feet look deformed.

my dad was really nice and got us all the chocolates we wanted, ha. went to prince court only to find out that my mom's friend wasn't picking up the phone so we didn't visit the baby :( instead we went to my mom's other friend's house to drop off the chocolates so that she can give them to my grandparents. yay.

there was a weird ass beetle in my room. i don't know how it managed to climb 26 floors high because it couldn't fly. my sister said so because she threw it out of the window and it didn't fly.

today was one of those days where i was super lazy to go back. it took me so long to gather myself up so that i could go to the hostel. stupid hostel.

i didn't touch my math assignment and i have no clue on what to write for my bio quiz tomorrow.

i can't believe ramadhan is finishing this week :( but then i get to eat and gain back all my weight.

i hope i do go to singapore... my jeans need new friends :)

216 - turning sixteen.

2010-08-22T18:48:00.003+08:00

So my birthday was pretty unexpected.

I think I'm just going to list down the things that happened.

Or not.

So, I was studying for my History at Midnight until Andriana came to my room with a scarf. I asked her why she was wearing it. She said "I'm practising my scarf dance."

Such a lie.

My room mate, Rayceal and Andriana then raped my eyes with a scarf and passed me a rope to my hands and I had to follow it.
It led me to the common room and Ilya was there!
Such a nice surprise. And then they told me to find my presents. I found one and I felt so happy... until they told me I wasn't done.

It took me 5 minutes!!! They hid the other present on the fan, literally.
It was so funny, yet so thoughtful. So sweet of them :)

I love you guys!!

And then I continued with my History until Yu Mi called me. I think my brain decided to be real smart and absorbed information from both the text and coming from the phone. I felt so awesome :)

Well, overall in school - I had the birthday song sang to me like 5 times? Pretty embarrassing :( I blame Celine for doing it twice... in Bio class.

But yeah! It was so thoughtful of Mr. Gregory of saying sorry for putting the test on my birthday and he gave me a lollipop! :)
But then he was cutting up fruits... Really good fruits :( and the test really tired my wrists.

And then Marcus gave me a Rocky for my present. I love it :D sad that he couldn't come later on though.

Andrew publicized my birthday and therefore the birthday song, again. Ha, thank you though :) He's such an awesome partner.

Beatrice texted me in the middle of my Math class and told me that she was coming to Pyramid! How thoughtful :)
So I met up with her after school and she invited a couple of people to Pyramid. I changed while talking on the phone with Darius and then went to Orange. We chilled there for a bit and then this Ali guy was all 'Oh, how could you not get her a present? It's okay I'll get you a present.' Jeez, woman, you don't even know my name.
Everyone was there - Andra, Dong, Milad, Chen Sern, Beatrice and Zariff - and then we took Chen Sern's car to Milad's. Me and Beatrice sat in the trunk coz we couldn't fit, but that was fun :)

After Milad's we headed to Pyramid. I went around Pyramid with Beatrice because she wanted to buy kebab and then we all met at Eve.
That was fun, talking to some of them and taking some pictures :)
Hanif came and then I took my money, the ATM took forever though. We were talking about Carmen and then all of a sudden, she just appeared while we were going to meet back with the others.

Such a creeper. And then there was this fight happening nearby and it was really intense and it kinda followed us when we were going back to the entrance O___o

And I buka-ed with a Haagen Dasz :) my own birthday present? Haha.

We decided not to go with everyone to get the pizza, so I just went with Hanif. It was pretty confusing because I forgot where Domino's was exactly.

But we found it! 5 boxes for 100 bucks is so worth it. And we even got 2 boxes of Milo packets for free :D

It was pretty funny because whenever we mentioned about this particular person, the boxes kept falling. Coincidence? I think not!

I came back to the school with like a lot of people and music blasting. It was a party. That I didn't plan.

But it was great! The pizzas finished so much faster than I expected and everyone got a piece or two, I'm not sure. But I guess people had fun.

I hope people did :)

Thanks again to everyone!

I want the pictures though...

And thanks to Hanif, for wishing me exactly at the point where I turned 16 :)

I love you :)

Celine and I hosted Open Mic on Friday. Small show-up but it was pretty awesome. The Pei Pei Boys did Use Somebody and Marcus & Ms Litman did Crazy. It was fantastic :)

Then we waited for my sister + Shaadhoon to finish their class and Deedee's mom to arrive so we could make a move to The Curve. Me and Andriana managed to scare Deedee :D

That was funny :) I can't ever forget her face.

Deedee, Ilya and Andriana went with Deedee's mom while Kelvin, my sister, Shaadhoon and I went with a cab. The taxi driver was really nice. He laughed while my sister played practical jokes on Kelvin.

Met Hui Xian on Friday's and the 4 of us walked to the cinema to check on the movies. Took us a while to decide on what we really wanted to watch, and we ended up chatting there :D I like the cinema.

We walked back to Friday's and decided to give Ilya a little surprise. The TGI Friday's birthday celebration thing! :)
It was so funny, because he had to sing a song and one of the bartenders kept on telling us to keep quiet.

Then I managed to visit Hui Xian's place but I think Tykes doesn't like me :( Intuitively I ran away, therefore the fear haha.

But yeah, I like her room :D So spacious.

We walked back to the cinema to meet up with the others and I found out that Hanif is lost, so I walked to Ikea to fetch him. So sad seeing him so lost.

We watched The Descent. I was partially concentrating and the other making fun of it with Hanif. It had some suspense-ish scenes. And the ending left me 'WTF'-ed.

But if you're really bored and want to watch it, I guess it's okay. Because the people at the back of us were like shouting, haha.

Then we went to Ikea for our buka. That's right, meatballs :D

Hanif and I queued up while my sister and Shaadhoon went to get a place. Talking with the whole group was pretty fun. We laughed quite a lot, and I played Ilya's KOL Tap Tap :D

Since Kelvin and Hanif wanted to smoke, the others went in to check out the showroom. We ended up playing a supposed Hide & Seek. And it was the shit. I had so much fun with them, and we even had our own "house party". We took some pictures as well :)
We role-played for a while, and then we got asked to do a survey.

From there, everyone kind of went their own way. I was always with Hui Xian and Hanif though. Kelvin, Andriana and Deedee left first while we were still at Ikano.

I didn't get to buy my Nerds :(
But then I bought sour ribbons.

Went back to Sunway with Hanif, my sister, Shaadhoon and Ilya. I think we kind of shouted, instead of talking. And Hanif pushed a pull door. Oh and a tranny was hitting on him.

HAHAHAHA. I'm sorry but that's just funny :)

We wanted to give Hanif a wedgie but that didn't happen... We would get kicked out of the car, haha.

Got a little bit screwed by the hostel, but meh. Not my first.

I was so tired, but it was worth it. Worth the tiredness.

On Monday, we played a "game" for bio. It was so confusing. And stressful, somehow.

On Tuesday, we continued the game and after school, Andriana, Kelvin and I went to Pyramid to get Ilya's presents. It was funny because Kelvin was scared of this tranny, haha. And Ilya's presents are so awesome - I wanted them. Oh and we bought him cupcakes too :)
His "surprise" was kind of surprising because his room mate ended up coming downstairs too.. O___O

We (Andriana, Hanif and I) ate at Lunchbox for dinner and we finished 6 Teh Botols. I miss them, very much.

I ate there on the next day too, but with my sister and her friends. But I ate Indomie. Awesome stuff :)

And I had honeydew!!!

My week was pretty eventful, and random too.

But I had so much fun!

I think I'm exaggerating the exclamation marks though.

Talked to Ezzat, Hasbi and Kresno yesterday and I miss them a lot. I want to eat Roti Jala with them at Yellow Hat.

I hope I can see them soon.

I had a present-shopping day with Yu Mi at Mid Valley today. It was something new, I haven't shopped like that for a while. It was refreshing to talk to her again. I love talking to her :)

The KTM smells like piss though. Haha, we bought presents for Kresno and ourselves (which is awesome, by the freggin way). Yu Mi bought for Triptesh.

We wanted to buy this Bubble Blower thing for Kresno, but we found a cooler one. I think.

I had fun, and I had fun eating my mom's awesome sop ekor/buntut and pudding.

Now I have to pack :(

OOH AND I BOUGHT TIE-DYE DYES :D
Okay. Now I seriously have to pack.

A week of stress, here I come :(

215; so i put my hands up.

2010-08-15T12:04:00.002+08:00

I SO ACED MY BIO TEST.

well, except for one part in which everyone in class had to do a retest in, but still. i got full marks on the other parts. even the bonus section. yeah!

for the past few days, i think my dreams have really become a thought on my mind. what's with all the weird obstacles?

like a few days ago, i dreamt that i was in antartica. that's right. one of them north/south poles. with a freggin POLAR bear.

and then there was another dream where me and my family were trying to get away from an atomic bomb but the only thing we did was eat alfresco under a bridge, next to a river.

can you say wee-ard?!

and there was even once i was dreaming in a dream and in that dream i was dreaming in a dream and there i was dreaming in a dream too, and so on and so forth. it's so uncanny!

so, i had a math test on wednesday. it was alright, i think i did okay on it. it would be so weird if i failed. i just think that i'm wrong in one question though.

OH WELL.

it was just so funny looking at andriana stressing out and forgetting how to do everything.

but in the end, she'll get a higher mark anyway -___-

and! in the review class, i was like 'why am i even here? i know how to do all of these things!'. i just realized my math capability isn't so low.

and finally, we had waffles! on that day.

and we actually bought a lot. we bought like 6 on that day... waffle tuesday isn't ringy enough :(

the history course that i'm taking right now might not be there next semester. which is so sad for the future generation. they might change it to like some 16th century history and the like.

it's horrible. the book is so boring.

speaking of the future generation, how would our next generation be like? it's already messed up as it is right now. i mean, my 3 or 4 year-old cousin can use the laptop better than me! (not really, but she can really use it). and yeaaa! how much more can technology improve?

it's kicking ass already.

it's going to be a sad, new generation.

on the other hand, mr gregory had a essay workshop or some sort for last week, and it was funny because we were used bananas as an example. imagine wriiting essays about bananas.

it would be prettyyy hard, i guess.

and guess what! he placed a unit test. where? yeap, you guessed it. ON MY BIRTHDAY. i'm so bummed i can't unforget. it would be worse if i did really bad on it.

but if i kinda think of it, thank god its not friday. or else i'll be studying on the night of my birthday. which sucks even more.

and right now, i have no idea whatsoever on how i'm going to celebrate my birthday.

it's very confusing.

and then i spent the rest of the day (at least until 7.30) with hanif :D he called the girl i hate ugly. i love him :) hahaha

so on wednesday, andriana and i went to pyramid to get her stuff done. she spent so much in such little time. i have no idea why we were sort of hyper on that day.

but yeah, we went to pyramid with the shuttle and were talking about colleges and stuff. jeez, cant believe i'll be graduating next yearrr. and then we got slightly hyper because of andrianas hunger, i think. and then we bought pencils, which was pretty awesome.

i love pencils. wait, no. i love stationery shopping. i need to buy another pen.

then we went to the entrance to wait for the shuttle. took a long time, so we decided to take a seat in starbucks. and then we were just talking about the randomest things, oh like how i'm going to celebrate my birthday and how i've a budget for it and stuff.

and then out of nowhere this guy kind of tripped on the stairs, and i can't help but to laugh and then he saw me laughing. it was just so funny coz he kinda thought no one saw it, but hell i saw everything. his facial expression was priceless.

and then it was already 7 and we were like, shuttle bus aint coming. so we busted a move and decided to walk back which was the funnier part.

we were too happy to not be laughing out loud and like some guys decided to do that weird ass kissy noises to us. it's super annoying, but we were ignoring it and thought 'hey! they just have things stuck on their teeth' so next time we're gonna be offering them toothpicks.

and then i tried to stop my habit of saying 'bye' at the end of my sentences for absolutely no reason, which was pretty hard. and now i'm going to be saying hi! bye! to everyone.

ah, i was so annoyingly loud on that day. but that was fun.

i got my awesome report card on thursday. which was weird because i felt like i had such a bad entrance to the semester. i stayed back in school to talk to guan kit because we usually do that. we just talk about random things and like on tuesday we were talking about bad english because ms shannon saw a movie poster and the title of the movie was 'where got ghost?'. which is funny to her.

and then i saw like this excerpt from up which made me cry. it was so sad :(

and then a few days before that i saw a video of dolphins which also made me cry.

i've like such a soft spot for so many things!

ooh ooh and i managed to give andriana a shock :D which was preeetty awesome.

well, my school week wasnt so eventful but at least i managed to get some awesome stuff done :D

then on friday i met my cousin!!! finally, after like 2 years i see her again. we didnt really do a lot of things on the first day except buying sushi and some other stuff in jusco.

but we went to pavilion on saturday (and there were a lot of people there too, i just didnt meet them -__-)

we went to forever 21, cotton on, pull & bear, diva and zara but we went back home with food, and only food. but it was awesome food - gimbab and wantan! only the best wantans, ever.

but yeah, it was fun and tiring. tried on this reaaaally cute dress and i think i'm going to get it, if it's there in sunway :)

and then after that i spent the whole night with her because she was going the next day.

which was really fun because she told me a lot of things. interesting, and i swear to god she makes the funniest jokes but i seem to be the only one who understands it!

we stayed up coz she had to pack and i wanted to eat. we got random and danced to Party In The USA. that was fun :D

i only slept at 5 because i wanted to say goodbye to her.

and right now i miss her and i just remembered what other stuff i should tell her.

oh well, i'll miss the chaos we had in the house. and my 3 little cousins bullying me and me fighting with my 10-year-old cousin for chips.

and oh my good, you cannot unsee the huge similarities between my dad and his brother. it's too similar. crazy. he's just slightly more lenient.

so right now my worries are:

my bio work: 'why do male and female penguins work together to raise their babies, contrary to other animals?' and i have no idea why
what the hell am i going to do for my sixteenth birthday
where the hell am i going to go after i finish school (and other questions that follow)

other than that, i'm off to start another week by fasting on monday and trying to decide whether or not i should go to futsal.

maybe i should eat and shower first.

dibs on the caramel pudding :D

oh and this is my youngest cousin :) she was so adorable when she was younger.

she still is though.

she got called bossy. haha.

sad that i didn't get the pictures of the other 2.

214; recycled thoughts.

2010-08-09T01:15:00.003+08:00

since i've left this blog to exile, i'll write this in a list.

sometimes people change in such a short time and you don't even realize it. and when you do realize it, it's like you're missing out three quarters of their life. and now, you don't even know what's left to converse.
when something from your past comes back to you, it warms your heart in so many ways. roller coaster tycoon 1 did that :)
Tsumori Chisato , Alice + Olivia and DKNY are three aspiring designers and they'll be in my 'Designers To Worship' list for a very long time. i need some money to get some of thattt.
my ears have responded well with arctic monkeys, thus the shirt from Ilya. thank you so much :)
i have yet to hold another grudge for a small reason - i don't really want to take it back. the bitch deserves it. she didn't say sorry for kicking the ball right to my abdomen, no respect much?
history class is loaded with debates and this selfish, close-minded classmate of mine can never shut up. he's always looking at the situation with his own perspective and now, being a parasite. no, you're not always right.
a new semester, a new clan? i have no idea. i do know that the company of reuben and rayceal is pretty awesome :)
http://mingle2.com/dating/unicorn - one of the reasons why unicorns are so fucking awesome.
grigory rasputin has got to be one of the most intriguing people to ever exist in life.
animals - my infinite love for them has been redefined. all thanks to you, sir david attenborough. note, i would love to be your partner in crime of your intelligence.
since variations must occur - andriana and i have created the next generation of hybrids: brazillians and japanese. we too, made our chinese names. mine? Miley Pan Han Li. till this very moment, i don't know why.
the 5th floor has become a new spot for us too - despite the awkwardness we had. i don't know how many times i've shouted on that day to say hello to the people down under. it was funny :) and as well as the spectacular view... of bird sex and a slight of foreplay. yumm.
16 months? Hanif, that's crazy. I love you :)
karaoked for zariff's birthday. and that was crazy - the chances of me losing my voice on that day was pretty high. i remember singing to: talk, crazy, hot n cold, waking up in vegas, alejandro, i'm in miami trick, catch your wave, happy birthday, sempurna and some others i'm not sure of. but that was a lot of fun :)
played mahjong with marcus. i still suck.
500gigabyte worth of hard disk for 188 and my dad still questions me of why i bought it. the real question is, why wouldn't he buy it for me then?
i am a balloon-stealer. technically speaking, that's legal.
darius has seriously turned into the sibling i never had. his birth date is perfect to fit between me and my sister. coincidence?
ratatat is my new ear candy. it's pretty addictive. you should give it a listen.
eyeliner on my eyelid, never works. why? it has always looked chaotic on my eyes.
my sister's stomach has a sharp needle, therefore the burst of the balloon when i tapped it against it.
my allergy towards seafood = myth. that's right seafood, ratri's back to eat moreee of ya.
i'm stuck in the middle of the very middle. it disgusts me how stupid and unreasonable this is. disappointing too, and i don't know what i'm supposed to do. the only thing i'm sure of is that i am not going to start taking sides.

currently, it's 1:50 am in the morning and i'm up to "study" biology. that's what everybody believes. i want to believe so as well. school's been such a mess - my brain and nerve cells are going haywire with all the information i'm absorbing.

my cousins/uncle's family is coming over this week and they're staying over. 11 people in a place like that? it seems that my sisters and i are going to set a tent, literally.

no more drama for this week, please.

213; the bends.

2010-07-31T13:08:00.004+08:00

i've got to say that last week friday was one of my best ones for the year.

it's pretty weird that yesterday, was a complete disaster for me.

last friday, my camera was being totally awesome and made such a cool effect.

took so many pictures in eve and had a huge laugh in the toilet because i accidentally kicked this chick beside my cubicle.

before that we ate at pasta zanmai, and the beef yakiniku there is pretty darn good :)

and the green tea was pretty good as well :)

shared 2 tables with 11 people and they were all pretty darn big. it looked like we were all a big, huge... dysfunctional family. haha.

met hanif and johan at eve and we kinda talked... then we went around.

got pretty tired and went to jco. we tried to sneak deedee in to the hostel - that was stinking hilarious.

but hey, at least we tried :)

since that failed, we went to eat at lunchbox and messed around in school.

me and andriana went back and ilya called us to play badminton. damn, that was tiring.

then i got to know the kazakh guys a little and i think we saw like this lady... who was a ghost.

up until now i don't know what that was.

the next day, went out to mid valley to meet up with yumi, iliyana, jun and pranay. it was pretty fun, i haven't met them for a very long timeee but yumi wasnt at her best that day.

but we had calamari rings and ice cream! it was preeetty good :)

bought my earphones coz they were breaking and it was hurting my ear... and then my parents picked me up and we had chinese.

it was kind of disappointing... wanted to buy shoes, but there were none (that my dad accepted of, at least)

then i had tennis, and sushi king for dinner on sunday.

I HAD SOME WEIRD ALLERGY ATTACK. towards i dont know what.

i was like so worried, coz i didnt want to be allergic to seafood.

I LOVE SEAFOOD.

it's just not possible.

the itching was horrible - continued all the way to tuesday.

drank 2 cups of milk that night even though i was full of sushi and green tea ice cream (and they were so good, urgh.)

went to futsal on monday and damn, that was tiring. even walking to the place was really exhausting. and yeah, i played... still not good at it haha.

and the whole taxi drama thing... it was really unexpected.

i have no idea what went on the couple of days later but there's this classmate of mine who is really getting creepy... seriously.

ooh. hanif and johan came over to school on wednesday.

hanif wanted meatballs but then we didn't have enough time. oh well.

i still want them... and macaroni and cheese.

thursday after school was such a frustrating evening. got annoyed at so many things... weird thing is, they were all (mostly) guys. from sky-diving goggles, irresponsibility, short jokes to complete ignorance.

i was shouting at everything that moved. maybe that's the reason why i have such a sore throat now.

which leads us, to yesterday - friday.

it was great in the morning - went as a jock to school. and did the morning announcements which i thought was a little bit messy. had fun in all my classes but after school it was really... horrible.

hostel pissed me off so bad, i even started crying everywhere. and my tears erased all my make up.

urgh, it was so frustrating; forcing people to do something they don't want to do is really, really stupid.

if i don't have the intention of doing it and see that i don't like doing it, i'm not going to do it.

i'll try every possible way to not do it.

just fucking get that, okay?

free time = free time. expect us to get high marks some more, what else do you want?

anyways, other than that. i met nana's sister, we ate korean and i vented all my anger through shopping.

bought a shirt from forever 21, a thumb-drive, this cute little turquoise pen and lead.

and i don't think i spent more than 50 bucks... but that's with the help of hui xian :)

i had fun catching up with her, even though we just walked around doing nothing.

but i'm glad we did that, and she was there for me. thank you, hui xian.

went back to the hostel and attended the celebration.

i swear to god, they forced us to have fun.

talked to ilya - thank god he was there - about everything and we got ice cream.

played slap mosquito with him and then a couple others joined. it was a great way to vent as well.

and then we played monopoly. was too lazy to play, ended up to be the banker.

serenee was on fireee.

and this morning i was still pretty pissed. they really forced them to wake up and stuff.

and that bitch was like 'some people make stupid excuses not to go'. well guess what? you're an old hag and you better be appreciating me coz my parents paid you.

just shut the hell up coz no one likes whatever words that comes out from your mouth.

so unreasonable.

mom tried to make me all happy by buying ice cream, since its the 31st.

but then before that, we ate in a mamak. no one can beat the nasi goreng pattaya in yumi's condooo, that's for suree.

went back home after all that, and here i am.

i've got 2 tests on monday and i'm still a little bit pissed off at everything.

sigh.

i can't wait until i get out.

212; why would you lie about anything at all?

2010-07-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

i am going to the zoo in two days!

it's funny how i'm in grade 11 and i'm going to the zoo with my classmates. we're like little kids.

i think we're gonna get lost, but wind up taking pictures anyway.

on thursday i had the worst period cramp in my whole entire life until i went to see a doctor about it. went to the sunway hospital with ilya and andriana, and it looked like they were my parents.

it was fun, even though we weren't there for a long time.

and we had an assembly. it was a greaaat day, except that my stomach was bugging me too much.

on friday, i realized the intensity of hatred i have towards math... it's immeasurable, really.

but yeah, i was kinda bummed on that day coz the cinema screwed us up. such a waste of time. i wrote for like 12 people and it was really crowded - just really messed up the whole day.

but then i ended up going to pavilion and watching toy story for the second time with hanif. it was very random, haa.

saturday was such a passive day - i stayed at home half of the day looking at some stuff, and i have got to say that the vans online store has the most awesome shoes and bags. it's not fair that all the stocks are in the US and all the things i want are like, what? 200 ringgit? crazy.

but yea, we ate seafood at night and i lost my appetite along the waay coz it took us like 2 freggin hours just to get there, and the food wasn't even that good really. and i had a bad stomach ache as well. and the whole confusion thing, so yea.

had cake for breakfast on sunday and i think there was coconut in that cake - i hate coconut in my food!

it's disgusting. they're meant to just be eaten on its own, not to be mixed into food. it's just wronggg.

tennis was excruciating! the class was at 11 and so the sun was right above my head and i swear to god, i strained my eyebrows for half an hour straight. and it hurt!

right after that i rushed and went to times square to meet yumi to "celebrate her brother's birthday". and it was great catching up with her and talking to her - finally.

we ate at secret recipe and had this long chat about everything around us.

bought like 2 pairs of studs - and i just lost one today, by the way - and talked a little bit more because i was waiting for my parents.

and then i went back to sunway and met up with hanif. we talked for like 2 hours-ish. it was refreshing - he talked some sense into me.

it was worth the sneaking.

the security guard is gullible enough :)

had so much work to do for biology on monday. i had work all piled up on that day, that was crazy. study period was weird because andra found out about catfish man. that's messed up.

and my history class is so frustrating because of the amount of discussion in class.

and math is so confusing. that's what i get for not doing it for an entire year. it's crazy how much i've forgotten about everything.

i guess drama is the only subject where i'm actually fine at, but i still get lost. which is so weird.

i have to make a game in drama, and i don't know what.

anyways, rina and brandon kidnapped me to pyramid on tuesday because rina wanted to buy her pants. it was fun and brief but then hanif came and we watched inception :)

inception is the second best movie i've watched this whole year so far. it's brilliant and complete genius :)

today i went to pyramid yet aagain, but this time with andriana. she had a humongous debt she had to pay. but then before we went, we had waffles. good heavenly waffles :)

drama was fun, because we played more games. i never fail to laugh at that class. all because of reuben. he's hilarious.

got my test result for math, i did okay but i still don't get math. it's so confusing.

i have some other thing to say, but i have completely forgotten what it was.

and i just remembered it - yay :)

i got elected to be the homeroom leader - not a fan of doing so, but hey, at least i get to do stuff that not everyone can. haha.

i need to buy nerdy glasses for next week.

i'm still in search of thoseee.

my dad is in vietnam. so random.

some birds are prostitutes or are in a polygamous relationship. that's some nasty bird fact.

and people find me weird with eyeliner.

and do me a favour by arctic monkeys. the most awesome arctic monkeys song, ever.

211 - my reckless abandon

2010-07-14T01:01:00.003+08:00

whatever your taste of music is like, you must listen to sweet disposition by the temper trap. i hear it everywhere i go, and it's so good.

anyways, i got back from indonesia since saturday night. it was a pretty tiring thing because my sister and i went from bandung to the airport in jakarta and then to kl on the same day. and it turned out that we reached there way too early.

i saw a dog poop on the floor of the airport. funneh.

and i swear to god, klm has seriously upgraded their aircond. it's so cold!

overall, my trip back was pretty alright. i was actually bored when my parents were around.

we didn't really go to the places i wanted in jakarta.

but i surely went 9 hours on a train, or more.

and what's just really creepy is that there was this train accident on the rail where the train used a week after i went with the train.

it's not my first time happening to me.

i met yeshicaa! :) and hung out at senayan.

it was pretty awesome, i talked to her and i got some stuff that i've been wanting.

i met my cows - well practically my dad's cows.

i swear to god, they are so cute!!! i can't believe i petted a cow... i touched its ear. weirdly enough, i've always wanted to do that.

oh and my nephew got bitten by a goat.

i think that is the cutest thing i've ever seen. i know it's evil, but yea. haha.

some days i went on a food binge, and then i just didn't feel like eating.

and then some days i just felt so lazy and stayed home and played roller coaster tycoon (Y)

didn't really do much shopping, but i did get new things :)

obviously, right?

i was really completely disappointed about the loss of brazil to the netherlands, even until now.

but thank god they didn't end up winning the world cup though :)

indonesia was going crazy on all that.

i wrote "I am beautiful" and drew a heart and flower in my cousin's wall literally and i felt so proud. that should do the trick :)

had fun watching toy story 3 with them and then the dude in red came over to my house again and we played cards.

that was really fun, but of course my grandma blamed me for being too loud when it was my sister making all the noise -___-

i cut my hair, again. my previous hair has turned from really nice, to uncanny and annoying. now my hair is absolutely layered and i feel like my hair is back to the count of 16.

oh! another interesting fact.

i experienced yet another earthquake!

it wasn't really a hard one, but it was hard enough to make me realize that the ground was shaking.

ate whatever i needed to eat, and on my last day there, i went on a total binge.

it was crazy. i had like 5 meals?

that's really crazy for me - 2 is my max. haha.

i don't know what else i'm missing about my trip, but i just remember all the times i spent with my ass not breathing fresh air.

so school started yesterday... technically speaking, it's already wednesday, but i haven't slept yet so whatever.

first day was alright, but i received homework. on the first day. horrific.

taking Biology, World History, Functions and Dramatic Arts. fun :)

they're not so bad so far. i mean, my history class only consists of 6 students. it's so small.

and my biology trip to the zoo and the aquarium is supposedly next week! educational fun, what better way to serve.

played bingo in my history class and i found out that my teacher wants to live in the renaissance era, likes the colour purple and owns a cat. oh and he has a tattoo on his left arm? thats what they said. and i think my first 2 classes of history has been so deep and meaningful somehow.

urm and im suffering amnesia, just for math though. i dont remember any of the countless formulae in the math world.

the new students are so much better than last semesters. but i feel like the school is so crowded.

and the school changed so much, it kinda hurts.

my new roommate is pretty cool, she made a first good impression :) she's cool.

and to anyone who wants to eat at papa john's, the sauce is the best sauce in the history of awesome sauces. it's so good with the pizza, even though its just butter.

yeah, and me, ilya and andriana spent 50 bucks on stationery... yeah.

anyways, i seem to be lacking of sleep nowadays. so i better catch up with some right now.

210; left right in the dark

2010-06-12T13:56:00.004+08:00

hamana hamana hamana.

currently the only child right now.

my sister went to klcc and the eldest one has an exam.

how is it so far?

meh, i'm holding up. it's only for today.

my holidays have been alright. i haven't been bored to death yet :)

let's start from where i left off. friday.

we went to port dickson just for lunch which was awesome.

i had chilli crab and butter prawn. yumm♥

before that i got to play on the beach! :D despite the fact that i had to do it alone.

and... played with the kite for a little.

i wanted to go shell hunting, but the tidal waves kept on washing them away :(

booked the flight tickets back to jakarta.

going with klm :) i love the desserts they give on the meals.

going on the 16th and coming back on the 10th.

i'm gonna be staying the longest out of the whole bunch.

mwaha! i have so much time to waste.

lately i haven't been eating much. i can never gain weight. even i if i try for days.

coz this house i live in, there's no such thing as 3 meals a day.

-___-

i reemember being such a health nut for dinner. i had salad, veggies, bits of rendang, a banana and a cup of yoghurt.

itt was weiiird.

followed my sister around for 2 days. and in those two days i met the people i havent seen for god knows how long.

it was fun :) it was just that my feet were in so much pain.

coz we walked around pavilion for so long. we were there for like 9 hours.

and i watched shrek 4. again.

but that was fine :) i didntt expect myself to laugh that much though. hahaah

went to sayfol the other day to meet up with hasbi, ezzat and darius.

ended up going to ampang point for lunch and bumping into yumi.

it's nice to go back to your past and knowing that people actually remember you.

that was fun.

other times i stay at home, reading facts, hunting for songs and watching tv shows online.

i'm on a laziness bingeee.

but it's gooood :)

i currently am craving for nachos, yoghurt and a wardrobe makeover.

please :) my birthday is in 2 monthssss.

my mom told me about this NASA mission. it's called face in space.

i got bored and did it. ha. it'll be funny if i get the chance to go to space and find my picture on the moon.

anyways.

i'm gonna be a good girl and get ready for some wedding my pareents have to attend.

and then go to tesco to recycle.

then bug my parents to buy the things i need to buy.

isnt that what only-childs do? ha.

p.s since i went on a song hunt. i shall show you one. this is the most adorable one out of aall :)

209 - you're something like a phenomena, baby.

2010-06-04T10:46:00.004+08:00

well, that was taken on the last day of my exams.

my exams turn out quite well but i think my marketing and english.

maybe its because i had one after the other.

my wrist was so tired on that day.

had pizza on tuesday with kelvin, andriana, ilya and my sister.

received the coupon coz the pizza came in late.

watched definitely, maybe and i have to say it wasn't that bad.

i actually teared up a little when abigail breslin started crying.

it was fun talking to them :)

despite the fact that i had my science exam early in the morning haha.

had my last burger of the semester in the cafeteria for lunch on wednesday.

well, that doesnt sound so sad, but i had fun. ate with lee xian, rina, deedee and andriana.

deedee made this potato-salad-popsicle haa.

spent like 8 hours in pyramid, and it was crazy tiring.

watched bounty hunter - me and rina were the only ones laughing, so that was really dull.

ate at sushi king and had fun talking to the 3 :)

and then again, we were the loudest haha.

after deedee and rina left, me and andriana went to meet my sister and shaadoon.

talked outside out pyramid for a bit and walked back to the hostel.

and we were wondering...

how do snails reproduce?

seriously?

finally met my mom after two freggin months.

had so many things to bring back home... and i was craving for teppanyaki.

so we ate attttt klcc :)

it's been so long since i've been there too, so ha.

i dont know why but i feel like i can joke around my family and they laugh.

which is weird.

coz i'm never funny. intentionally.

was supposed to go to sayfol's sports day but i guess thats not happening.

so in replacement, i'm going to port dickson for lunch with the family and that's pretty random.

yaaaaay beach!!! :)

208; and there goes our history.

2010-05-29T17:42:00.004+08:00

1. graduation pool party

2. me, hanis, zariff, isaac in the background, lynn and andriana

3. zariff, weini and me.

can't believe another semester has passed.

i've been in this school for almost a year.

it's the end of my tenth grade life; i don't even feel like i'm in the tenth grade.

scratch that, was.

what a semester.

ms. rani was right. i did have an academic challenge.

thank god i managed to finish all my work, and i even took my own lovely time.

pretty bummed about the fact that this chick got a higher mark than me in her ISU.

despite the fact that she didnt write her research report, therefore not having her citations.

she got higher than me. what the fudge.

and my sharpies got stolen.

that was really annoying. and just plain rude.

yes, it's partially my fault for leaving my pencil case in the resource room.

sigh.

my nose is not annoying anymore.

but now, it's my throat.

it's really REALLY annoying. i feel like cutting it off.

i wonder how it would be like to not have a throat.

on the flipside, i had dinner with keith, hanif and sabrina on monday.

it was fun and plus i havent talked to keith for a while.

hes going to jakarta. and all he's gonna do is buy dvds.

i want some.

then on tuesday, the hostel people had a bbq dinner.

we came "fashionably" late because we were hanging out in school.

it was fun, we were talking about the random things and finishing up our last assignments.

the bbq wasnt disappointing either.

had corn, prawns! and sausages.

it was nice to have a small get-together with the people who live under the same roof as you. literally.

went to watch shrek 4 with hanif on wednesday. it was so funny :)

especially the "do the roar" boy!

met rina and lee xian when we wanted to buy ice cream.

rina is so bully-able :)

but yeah, it was great.

andddd on thursday. it was the last day of the semester.

i was actually really lazy to go to school. but i know i would regret it.

thank god i did :)

had tea for marketing class, had to do my last presentations of the semester in english, listened to mr brims story about him shitting on his pants and had the very disappointing class in science.

i dont know how many times i've written in people's semester books and shirts.

i wonder how those people feel.

to leave high school; to never have to step foot on a 'school' anymore.

received an award in the assembly for having a positive attitude.
funny, because it reminds me of the week where i didn't recognize who i was.

well. good news is, my mom is coming back on wednesday! :)

now all i wonder is if i'm going back or not.

coz i do want to go back.

i want to say hello to my grandpa.

and shop.

speaking of shopping, there's freggin sale everywhere!!!

urgh, i can't wait to drag my mom to body shop.

planned to do so many things.

but i'll hate it if none of the things that were planned actually happen.

gotta stop procrastinating.

4 exams, and they're all a pain in the ass. for real.

aeronautical engineering [207]

2010-05-24T02:58:00.004+08:00

it's 3.30 in the bloody morning and i cant sleep.

all because of my nose.

yay world :)

i realized that ive kept this blog idle for a bit.

i just dont know what to write.

nothing much has been happening.

its just more like work, work. and even more work.

i have nothing more to do for marketing.

YAY world.

but when i had my pitch/presentation there was a cockroach. is that like a message?

from a cockroach? O___o

my science lab was a total failure.

but id like to try it again, but for a longer period of time.

i just hate the taste of lime + salt together. weirdly enough people actually like it.

bleh.

me and kyu mi trying the orange peels. it actually made our teeth yellow-er.

last week for dinner, i have continuously eaten nasi goreng ayam.

well, it was only 2 - haha - point is.

they werent that good. especially when i tell them i dont want it spicy.

it was simply tasteless.

god -___-

on friday, i think my dad was craving for seafood.

when he asked if we wanted seafood for dinner i thought we were going to eat in port dickson or something, but no.

a few years back, like 5? i think? we used to go there for seafoood. and its the only one we knew that was near.

it was in kelana jaya. but not anymore.

it sucks! :( my dad really hyped me up for seafood.

but we ended up eating in bangsar, and i saw mr erol there.

it was really weird.

the nandos in bangsar had an indoor playground for kids and these 2 were playing and they were a little too big for it, i have to say.

and the boy got stuck at the tunnel.

it was really silly hahaha. i wanted to laugh but i felt bad.

anyways, they changed the graduation dinner to a graduation pool party

im planning to go!

with glowsticks! :)

but i forgot to bring the thats in one of the drawers of the book cupboard.

its been sitting there, for like 3 years straight and not used.

i know its too precious to be used, but. its a glow stick.

oh yeah, a few days back.

my old french teacher was like 'mew mew' to me.

and then i asked him how he was.

and he said 'im good, but better with you'.

WHAT THE FUDGE.

and not forgetting, he asked me for my number

now i avoid him, he has always been creepy.

meh. the house was such a mess.

my dad has the ironing board in front of the tv, and his laptops are like on the dining table.

and the clothes that he wants to iron are all over the sofa, so i cant really sit there.

-___-

and the house is really dusty.

haha.

i want to go back!

and i really need to go shopping! my body lotions, soap, perfume and even my toothpaste are finishing.

and my sister said body shop is on sale.

i cant go, because my MOM isnt here -___-

the 2 tennis classes ive had for the past weeks have been horrible!

the sun was always above my head, and i even got a headache because of that.

but then i felt the tennis mojo 2 weeks ago.

and then i lost it.

all because of my period -__-

girls, its your first day of period and your cramps are starting and all the blood is coming out and then 3 hours later you're out running around under the HOT sun and you have to chase a fucking green ball.

THE HORROR.

for those who doesnt know how it feels, imagine your lower stomachs insides being churned and twisted, and then imagine the sun and the green ball.

sucks.

ah, and im blabbing.

i cannot believe that the semester is already ending!

as impossible as it actually is (does that make sense?) im gonna miss this semester.

my subjects consisted of a lot of work but they were fun.

im gonna have biology, math, history and drama next semester.

wonder whos gonna be with me in drama except for stephanie and guan kit.

hmmm.

man, i think i really am getting sick.

dammit.

Idioteque [206]

2010-05-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

what i've done for the last week:

went rafting on monday! :)
it was one of the best outdoor experiences i've ever had. can't wait to do it again.
had the performance night rehearsal.
shankar's and mr gregory's rehearsal was really touching... and i almost cried.
ate pixy sticks with andriana, ilya and andra. it was funny.
was really hungry on wednesday.
i went on a small binge. waffle wednesday :)
performance night on thursday!
met hui xian and hanif :) my feet were almost going to die, because i wore my sister's shoes which was 2 sizes smaller than my actual size.
watched robin hood. boring-est movie ever.
chilled at pool room and had fun gossiping around. ha.
ate nasi goreng ayam in jaaffar. it was alright.
stayed up till 4 coz my nose was so itchy and i knew i couldn't sleep with an itchy nose.
super broke and i only have 1 buck in my wallet

went back home today and ate the ayam goreng in cheras. mmmm so good.

i have a craving for sushi, but i'm actually lazy to get some.

currently working on my english ISU and i have around 559/1000 words. i guess that's alright.

i have to put in-text citation but i dont know where i should place it. i dont even know if its right or wrong.

had to do research for my science experiment and it was about teeth.

now i find the word teeth really weird.

but yeah, i cant wait.

i dont know how im gonna do it though.

i have a marketing FCT to do as well, and last but not least, a history ISU of a 1000 words too.

god, i dont know how i'm going to manage to finish it all on the due date.

it's crazy.

i'm sick of typing and thinking of what to write.

i can't wait for the holidays.

i really cant.

I love the way you call me 'baby' [205]

2010-05-08T16:08:00.007+08:00

I miss my mom.

Back at home, being completely idle and ignorant about work even though I have 4 ISUs to complete by the end of the month.

I got the idea, but I just need a kick-start.

What's worse is that my Dad told me that there's this Indonesian Family Gathering thing with his friends and I actually want to meet some of my Indonesian friends coz it seemed like I haven't met them forever!

Maybe I should go.

But it's on the weekend before all my assignments are due :(

Anyways, I had a marketing test last Monday. Left the book and notes stranded over the weekend but the outcome was a 55 over 60.

Mwaha! I feel so smart! But it's more like luck.

I got more than my sister. That's all that matters.

I've been craving for waffles for so bloody long!

Wanted to get some one night but I was too late.

They were all closed.

Hosting for Performance Night and I have to say I'm more excited than worried :)

But I know all the nervousness will come on the day.

That is so typical me.

I still can't make up my mind on what to wear though.

I think I'll go with my sister's prom dress.

Because I really want to wear those wedges!!!

Man, I really want the high-waisted skirts in Cotton On.

They look really pretty.

Urgh.

Anyways, yesterday, Andriana, Andra, Zariff and I went to the Curve because apparently Andra has never been to The Curve.

Only to find out that he has been there before... Just misinformed of the place. I think.

It was really fun :)

The guys weren't really at the right state of mind, so yea. Really silly and bunch of laughing stocks.

Me and Andriana almost died laughing.

We had lunch at TGIF and I had buffalo wings.

Honestly speaking, I don't like it. I don't really like the food at TGIF. I only like the decorations :)

The guys played pool and it was so funny because they were too tall and had to bend to play it properly. Ha.

We bought candy at that place where they sell party decorations and stuff. Yay Wonka Nerds :)

And the cashier was really nice. I think she has a thing for Zariff.

He's so funny :)

Watched Dear John and Mean Girls last night.

Mean Girls is so much better :)

OOOOOH!!!

I'm going whitewater rafting on Monday with this semester's PE class because some of them are bunch of pussies and scared of going.

Mr. B even saved the last spot for me!! :D

Oh that reminded me.

We played the Penis game in the Curve.

Baha. I'm surprised we didn't get kicked out!

And on the way back me and Andriana were talking non-stop in the taxi while the guys were trying to sleep.

I don't know what made us that way.

Ho. I love Romeo and Juliet.

But it's so nauseating.

Romeo is 17. Juliet is 13.

She just got out of puberty and in the movie her jugs are bombs!!!

A woman more beautiful than the one I love? The sun itself has never seen anyone as beautiful since the world began.

That's what Romeo said.

Damn son.

okay.

Now I miss my mom.

Hi Mom!!! Thanks for buying me granny panties!!!

She's such a snob now.

Happy advanced Mother's Day!

Love you and I miss you very much :)

trapped in another dimension [204]

2010-05-04T10:48:00.004+08:00

alpacas :)

they're so adorable.

my last week has been one of my worst weeks ever.

my dad is supposed to come back today though.

i hope he'll bring back good news.

unlike my mom, who has been gone for almost a month.

speaking for a month, i have only one more month to go until the end of the semester.

i cannot wait but i can wait at the same time.

i don't want to write the 4 exams.

met the twins and hui xian to watch kick-ass in pavilion.

it wasn't bad at all, really.

went to nando's and we took a lot of pictures :)

things have changed.

they're weird.

and i don't know how i'm gonna get through it.

i don't even know if hanif is alive or not.

The Island in the Clouds [203]

2010-04-26T22:14:00.003+08:00

in conclusion.

the trip was awesome, even though i had to walk through bug pee to go to the toilets.

and showered with the dead bugs.

the night trek got me paranoid.

but i'm pretty darn lucky to be unlucky and not see a leech :)

saw a python, a couple of owls, a flock of hornbills, a pack of monkeys and three orangutan - one being a wild one.

i had a blast laughing with the people i went with. played a lot of card games and pool as well.

i beat my sister :)

it was a perfect size.

still very tired from it though.

only reached LCCT by 11pm.

it was a great experience and the people were super friendly.

awesome.

my teachers are western and they wonder why we don't get excited when we see an orangutan. and why we'd rather see an otter rather than an orangutan.

now i start to wonder too.

kharenee made me hug the kitchen lady in the camp.

and i wanted to cry because she had the most beautiful smile i've ever seen.

it was so sincere and i kinda felt her happiness in me.

i'd like to do that again someday.

a lack of oxygen [202]

2010-04-18T18:25:00.005+08:00

Was bored while waiting for the shuttle bus. So me and Ilya camwhored :)

I just realized how much I hate waiting for small little things.

Sigh.

I tripped on my way out to the bathroom and my second left toe hurts :(

And I fell down when I played futsal yesterday :(

This week was weird - coz I felt like it happened a week ago or something.

But on Wednesday, school was kinda boring and I was bored the whole day.

Ended up watching Clash of the Titans with Hanif after school :)

Verdict? It's alright... Not really my thing but it was interesting though. The effects were good.

I think my Mom told me that my Grandpa's health worsened... I cried a little because he's the only Grandpa I grew up with.

I hope he's fine.

And if he's not, I hope I get to say goodbye to him.

Oh oh oh - on Thursday, I managed to give Andriana a huge heart attack :)

It's so funny, she's so easily scared. Hahah.

The next day was Dress Down :)

I used my sister's green dress coz I had nothing else to wear, lol.

It didn't turn out so bad.

History was fun - the whole adrenaline during the quiz test thing.

Even though I only studied 10 minutes before the class started -___-

But we managed to get extra marks for our projects! :)

I calculated my carbon footprint for science and it turns out that I use up like 2 and a half earths. That's horrible.

Went to eat at Orange before we went to Pyramid. Had nasi uduk and Dong had bakso. It's so cute :)

We ended up walking to Pyramid coz it took the shuttle bus forever to come.

Went to watch the guys play pool and played a bit. I managed to shoot in some balls. Yay! :)

Thank god when we went to the cinema, it wasn't so full so we managed to get tickets forrrrr...

Shutter Island.

It felt so great, because I've always wanted to watch it. Despite the fact that I wasn't so much of a sucker for thriller movies. But it looked really good.

So we got tickets :)

Played Dance Dance Revolution with Andriana and - oh my God.

We were sweating.

A lot.

But it was good exercise :)
We still have 2 more tokens!!! Don't know when we're gonna play again though.

Hanif decided to come watch as well, so I had to buy the tickets. Originally, it was only the 5 of us and the seats were already 5 in a row, so if I bought another ticket he would be sitting alone.

So I decided to buy 2 tickets coz I didn't want him to be all alone.

I was kinda bummed that I had to pay 20 bucks to Andriana.

But!

Lucky me, Hanif came along with Marcus so, the ticket that was meant for me before was then Marcus' :D
So the risk I took was worth it :)
Saw Naufal, Ian and Michael on the ice skating rink and we were waving to them like crazy. It was funneh :)
Me, Ilya and Andriana were talking about the randomest things in McDonald's like girls painting nails or something. I pity Ilya, but at least he had us for company :)

I bumped the side of my face to the toilet door when I was going to the cinema.
It hurt so bad -___-
Now there's like a bump on my eyebrow. Reminds me of the bruise I got from Scream Park.

Verdict of Shutter Island?

AWESOME.
With no doubt.

It was really unpredictable and it really makes you think. Which is really interesting. Sucks to those people who didn't understand it.

Went to JCo after that to grab a Strawberry Freeze.

And it's gooooood. :)

And I even got a free glazzy :)

Oh then me and Andriana dubbed Dong, Ilya, Andra and Hanif when they were outside. Hahahaha.

We dubbed them and they were talking about buying cats.

Heeeheee.

The rest of the night was messed up, and I don't know what to do about it until this very moment.

Futsal was crazy tiring!

Like I said before, I fell down. And my body is really sore from that.

My left ass was in total pain after I fell.

I don't think the guy that pushed me said sorry... But I never really remember what happens during these things.

Even though we didn't win any matches, we managed to play in the semi-finals.

It was fun but really tiring.

The semi-finals was even more tiring coz there weren't many subs as like 4 people from the team went home already.

Hui Xian was there as well and she now knows my school. And even saw Plouffe. Hahaha.

Watched little bits of Spongebob and Phineas & Ferb at school coz we were kinda babysitting Yuka.

Then we watched half of Chasing Liberty... and my dad picked me up.

Had a massive headache on the way but I couldn't sleep.

Ate linner at Basil and it was gooood :) I don't know why I was craving for Kailan.

Totally KO-ed at home but I ended up sleeping at 3.30 coz I was talking to Stephanie on skype :)

I miss her.

This is one of the days where I actually had lunch.

It's kinda funny, because my family never really had lunch.

I'm getting kinda hungry now though.

The house feels kinda empty with just the three of us: me, my dad and my sister.

I don't know what I should bring for Borneo but all I know is that, my bag is gonna end up being so big that I could literally fit inside it.

And I'm gonna bring my hat and sunnies! :)

I can't wait!!!

what's always in the way? [201]

2010-04-14T09:59:00.001+08:00

sigh, the difference without their presence.

I have to say I'm not in the greatest state of mind right now.

Oh that reminds me - Salar, Ilya and Andra beatboxed a few days back and it was really cool :)

If only I could post it.

Saw the funniest thing on tumblr - which still cracks me up to this very moment by the way.

silly little thing.

Was in school for the whole of Wednesday despite the fact that it was a holiday. All because of history.

Waffle Wednesdays.
I think I'm gonna have one later on.

Ate Indonesian food on Thursday and realized that no matter what condition or state I am, I will always have an empty corner for them.

Heaven on a plate :) yummmm.

Watched Date Night on Friday night with my sister and Andriana. It was stinkin' hilarious but the guy beside me was such a fag and I think was the source of stench in the whole cinema.

I thought I laughed loud... and that was before I met him.

Ate kebab for dinner and damn, they were goddammit good.

Photoboxed as well, and it was so gay. I liked how the pictures turned out though :)

Walked back to the hostel despite the fact that it was so freaky!

Turned out fine despite the fact that we wanted to go to 1 Utama.

Maybe next time.

Man my arms were really tired from OSSLT on that day.

Futsal was cancelled last Saturday and Lee Xian called me in the morning, telling me that she's all alone in school and she's only going to get picked up by her driver at 12.

So we decided to have breakfast in Pyramid :)

HOTCAKES.

Finally got to eat them. I want them again now.

I wonder who would want to eat them with me :)

Pyramid was really empty and it felt like the place was a gazillion times bigger.

But when everything opened, Hui Xian came :)

Lee Xian was checking out studs for her belly piercing and she kinda pressured me (would that be the right word?) to get my ears pierced.

Man do my ears hurt on occasion.

I am so screwed when my mom gets back.

That day was really messed up, but it was fun :)

Especially eating in Ayam Bakar Wong Solo.

Hui Xian made new friends and she mixed with them, so that was easy.

Darius came over when I sent Hui Xian back and we chilled in the living room.

Ate satay for dinner, sent Darius back and had the weirdest tension in the car.

Went grocery shopping with my Dad and it was so weird without my Mom around.

Ate teppanyaki and it was very disappointing.

Sigh.

Had 2 pieces of J Co donuts on Monday and saw Hasbi, Daniel and Ali for a bit.

The amount of junk my friends bought just for a night of camping...

Watched Wild Child with Beatrice yesterday, but then she had to go.

Leaving me all alone with no girl to talk to :(

Thanks Andra for accompanying me in the common room :)

And the burger!

Darius didn't end up coming here yesterday and Qalila isn't coming here later...

Great.

you're my wonderwall [200]

2010-04-06T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hello. I love you :)

Happy Anniversary.

Please check your pockets, right now. Left something there :)

I can’t imagine life without you.
Thanks for making me crazy and happy everyday just because I think about you.

Love, xxx.

Crazy thing is, I'm posting this everywhere. I sound so obsessed.
whatever :)

the end has no end [199]

2010-04-05T22:45:00.003+08:00

KLPAC trip, Photobox with Lee Xian and Rina and meeting Hui Xian for The Lovely Bones in KLCC with Yumi :)

last week was quite a ride, i have to say.
it was fun though.
went out with yumi, ate nasi goreng pattaya and watched the lovely bones with hui xian and her friend moose.
that day was really tiring, i just remembered how much i walked on that day.

the day before that, went to klpac with school.
horrible experience in the japanese restaurant because i waited 1 and a half hours for nothing and only to find out that they didnt even make my food.
but the workshop and the show was really fun :)

the day before that, i went to pyramid with lee xian and rina.
walked there in the rain with uniform. took pictures in the photobox and got a temporary tattoo of a paw :)
it was really short but fun :)
but later that night i was kinda bummed by the people around me... its quite disappointing to find out that it was them.

bah, today was devastatingly busy.
there was hardly a moment in school where i was not doing work.
it was so tiring because there was so much to do and stupid me, forgot to do the work during the weekend.

mom is going back to bandung tomorrow afternoon and only coming back next week friday.
i have a futsal tournament to play in and i dont even know how to play futsal properly.
i have a science test tomorrow and i dont know what is there for me to study.
or in other words im really lazy.

i just want tomorrow to come
:)

and i really need to sleep.

walk, walk, fashion baby [198]

2010-03-30T09:49:00.003+08:00

Jared Leto is hot.

With no arguments, whatsoever.

show me your teeth [197]

2010-03-28T14:50:00.002+08:00

have i told anyone how badly i want these shirts?

i have no particular reason actually.

i would like a shirt of The Strokes because they're awesome enough for me to wear it.

and an SPCA one because i don't think the word of animal cruelty is spread enough.

my mom made pudding today!

my sisters made hot dog today!

i think i improved in tennis today!

i might have finished my history today!

it's lady gaga's birthday today!

and today is the last sunday of march.

did i tell you that Lady Gaga's album "The Fame Monster" is awesome?

despite the fact that there's only 8 tracks in the cd, she's still awesome. and she's 24 today.

oh and did i tell you that Justin Bieber is a 1994-born? such a shame.

i really really would want a cup of cold ocha right now.

i cannot wait for April :)

Borneo, here I come!

Strong Storm Trooper [196]

2010-03-27T23:00:00.006+08:00

boredom in history class.

ngeh.

i just realized that i dont really update here as much as before.

oh well.

i had the most horrible day of service practice on sunday for tennis.

i had the perfect service once though... but then this fag from the other court had to get his ball coz it went over to our court, blocking me from returning the ball to my sister.

urgh was so pissed at him.

i hate service!!! its so gayyyyy.

on sunday, my sister checked out the fact website i usually go to, which is here and she found this.

"anatidaephobia is the fear that somewhere, somehow, a duck is watching you".

that gave me the creeps for the whole week coz i think i really am anatidaephobic.

which is so weird, because fearing a duck watching you is by far the randomest fact i could ever think of.

who thought of that anyway?

had a mini-midnite facial on sunday with andriana and my sister. it was fun. but peeling off a pore pack is never fun. ever.

i counted how many people noticed my hair cut on monday!!

it was around 25 and it became 30 by the end of the week.

it's funny. i received different comments but most of it was about me looking more like my sister. meh.

oh and we gambled in science.

we won. i teamed up with Olzhas and we won and got $140. awesome.

tuesday was one of those busy days for me.

wrote 2 tests on that day. for marketing and science. played a game in english based on the Haitians. it was weird but yeah.

had to do some internet thing to my laptop for the hostel and rushed back there to change and play tennis. it was fun, but really tiring.

after that i had to finish my history culminating task - which i still need to do, by the way - and worry about my marketing marks (which i think i aced innn =]) oh and do the marketing survey.

but i ended up doing it in the cafeteria and staying there till like 9.

thanks again Hanif for being there :)

on wednesday i bought waffles because i found out the reason why my appetite has been so weird lately.

this past week i've only been wanting junk food and wasting the main food. i feel horrible.

i don't know whats up with my stomach lately.

and no, it's not period.

oh well. whatever makes my stomach happy :)

school was kinda boring, except for the fact that we had m&ms for marketing :)

and we were learning about optical illusions during science.

but found out that i had to wake up early for the next day :(

my "abs" hurt a lot all because of cheerleading on thursday.

it's insane, rina made me run like 5 laps around the tennis court.

20 push-ups was it?

and 50 sit ups.

that's right. fifty. READ IT AGAIN RINA.

you just made me sore. real bad.

that's not how i roll. nuh-uh.

had to jump a lot as well coz i was the only flyer -___- but thank god rina replaced me after that.

thank god it rained :)

ahaha :)

spent time with Hanif in the cafeteria after that. listened to quite a lot of different things and we stayed there for the whole time until my curfew.

it was nice :)

had ramly for dinner. it was goooood. :)

woke up to an itchy nose on friday.

my arm was already sore from the day before and i had to write so much for the mock test.

its crazy, i dont even know if whatever i wrote made sense or not.

chilled at school with naufal, andriana, my sister and mr c (?)

we were talking about mr c's trip to bali and how unlucky he was coz they had the Nyepi holiday. hahaa.

funny story about friday.

was supposed to go out with hasbi and daniel.

daniel cant make it - i guess?

so, hasbi invited darius.

but darius cant go coz hes broke.

and i cant go to pyramid alone with hasbi because thatll be quite... weird.

so i told hanif about it and he told me that hes going to be there.

and when i asked/called him to see if he was at pyramid, he didnt answer. so i thought he was still asleep - lol.

so i went with andriana, my sister, kelvin, ilya, andra and milad to pyramid to get a cab to pavilion. before that we hung out at orange so that they can eat.

i thought that i could eat later, because i was craving for these awesome wantan soup in the food court.

we took the bus coz it was right there and it was really hot.

and on the way to pyramid, we were doing the usual talks and kelvin and ilya were joking about weird things.

and then, hanif called and told me that he just finished watching his movie at pyramid.

so i told them i'll pass going to pavilion because i know that there's nothing much to do there especially when i'm broke.

so i teman-ed my friends and my sister to buy their taxi tickets and went to starbucks to meet hanif and eldy.

and it all started from there.

it was really tiring, even though we didnt really do so much. i think we spent most time at popular. checked out this book of 1001 places you must see before you die. it's so full of beautiful places.

bora-bora island was one of them.

we ate indomie at orange and walked back to pyramid in the rain to buy my flats.

worth it :)

i finally got the shoes i wanted :) felt so good buying them.

found out that my sister wasnt back at 9 yet so we were roaming around the area. haha :)

i had fun with Hanif :)

felt better with my sister coming home telling me it was one of the boringest day of her life.

felt bad as well though.

today, after my sister picked us up, we picked up my dad from darby park and had an unexpected lunch in tarbush.weird.ate sambosa because i thought it would taste the same as the ones in qatar. i guess not. neither is the kuey teow :(went down for a swim and also to take pictures for my optical illusion.my sister did one and i have to say, its quite disturbing.shes gonna hate me for this, but oh well.
first of all she looks like she's walking on the water. but when you look closely, she looks like a freggin creep!!!
but yeah, its been a while since ive taken a dip inside the water.i guess work has taken a lot of my time... but most of the time procrastinating.
for earth hour, i went to the planetarium with my sisters.it was really cool, but it would be nicer if we wouldve went earlier so that we could get the glow sticks and the lanterns.oh well.i managed to see saturn on the telescope and even though it was really small, it was really cool.it looked like a normal star though.oh and there was a telescope magnifying on the land of the moon. so i could actually see the craters on the moon and the edges of it.awesome.i really want a telescope.
before it all finished, me and my sisters went inside to the exhibition part of the planetarium.went inside to the anti gravity room, which is so cool. i loved the sign btw.
and that little blue thing on the right is the slide exit.
that room was crazy. its very psychological though.i think im gonna go there again someday :)
right now im procrastinating on my history and my sleep.my tennis class in like 10 hours under the dreadful sun.i should really get some sleep though.
this is by far the beautifulest song by the kooks.love it.

this has certainly been one of my longest posts.

i dont know why i kept it really long.

ooh. i made a formspring.

and a tumblr that is most probably more updated than this.

formspring & tumblr.

yes, you can tell me how lifeless i am.

or be like my dad and tell me that i should put the internet to good use, rather than doing these.

or just let it be.

Face To Face is playing on my iTunes.

love it :)

Letters To God, Part II [195]

2010-03-20T17:45:00.002+08:00

someone slapped me.

didn't go to a doctors.

and my jaw, is completely ignored.

oh well.

i was spamming my tumblr this whole afternoon instead of studying for marketing, or doing my english or history.

yay world :)

ah, my trip was... refreshing.

my sister had this unusual obsession with yellow shirts.

and guess what?

we finally got that spongebob shirt :)

yesssss. we managed to get 2, from the kids section.

but were small enough to fit into an L.

can i get a yay world again?!

got meself a pair of skinnies and a haircut.

its so freggin layered and weird but i like it.

my grandpas car is freggin epic.

and mind you, i dont use that word often.

it takes one hour to buy martabak.

which is only a distance of not even 2 kilometres.

no, its not the speed.

its the car.

the roads were going up and down.

and since the car is so old, my grandpa had to brake it in the middle of the road going uphill and my job was to support the car with a brick-shaped wood.

the car is seriously a piece of the family history.

but yeah, it was something for the first day.

got to watch alice in wonderland in blitz.

i like the place :)

because it has salty popcorn.

and what i realized from that is,

i like to eat salty food but i like to eat sweet drinks.

i dont get sweet food, except for candy of course.

music was my best friend during the times of journeying to places.

okay, pause.

im like so bored like till the utmost point of boredomness and so i make very little or no sense at all.

try to keep up.

anywho i completely forgotted about syncing in kings of leon, which sucked.

yeah, this proves ive been watching too much of how i met your mother.

by the way marshall and lily is like, the cutest couple ever.

meh, it was one of the trips im happy that i went for because i needed to take a break from everything.

sorta.

i dont think i overate this time, but i know i bought a lot of snacks back here. ha, call me fat but i love my countrys food.

i cannot wait to get my ass back there in june because there was one place (or two and roads to be exact)

Jalan Trunojoyo and Jalan Sultan Agung.

mom, you owe me shop-hop (or is it the other way round?) there.

hmmm.

for the past few days, the people close to me have been asking what im gonna do in the future.

and been telling me to do what i love.

i seriously have no idea even up to now.

i dont even know what my talents are!

heck i dont even know myself.

my grandaunt told me to go to medical school.

im sorry, there are too many doctors-to-be in the world.

dont want to be like them.

maybe i should just...

my ass hurts :(

phases of packing [194]

2010-03-12T18:56:00.003+08:00

olzhas, me, ilya, mr.b, my sister and dias.

chilling on a tree trunk :)

eeeeee. its friday!

i lost my friday spirit today.

history test was a total bum.

study periods for monday, tuesday and wednesday were all taken away.

it was so stupid.

all for osslt and surveys.

and what did we get in return?

dress-down day. yay :)

on monday night my mom told me we're going back to Jakarta.

and tomorrow is my flight. yay world :)

oh and we had our taste test.

guess which one won? cadbury.

very weird. milka tasted better for me.

ive been very tired.

most probably because of the work, and because i got sick.

went to the toilet on wednesday.

was washing my hand.

the chick next to me didnt turn the tap off while she was getting the soap.

and took like 5 freggin rolls of tissue.

i admit im not the most eco-friendly person around, but even if youre not eco-friendly its just really stupid to leave the tap on.

thursday was really tiring.

and study period was so noisy. so much for "studying".

my dad just told me i take 30 minutes to apply make-up.

i don't use make up at all.

sigh why is he so smart and i just didnt get those genes?

getting on a plane with an airline ive never went with before. funny thing is, its the main indonesian airline.

and riding a train!

i love trains :)

Go hang a salami, i'm a lasagna hog [193]

2010-03-07T20:52:00.005+08:00

Kings of Leon is played and it's on repeat.
i don't feel so good.

i think i got too tired from everything.

having a sore throat.

and a sore body.

i might have to start walking around carrying paper to write whatever i want to say.

or start talking in sign language.

my week was eventful.

and i only have a week left till the week holiday.

cadbury dairy milk vs. milka alpine milk.

i wonder which will win.

he whispered lies. [192]

2010-02-28T14:59:00.002+08:00

for the past few days i've been listening to hell lot of songs.

i need to get my iTunes a clean-up.

almost a collection of 1000 and not all the songs are being listened. such a waste.

i'm sure youve heard about the orca who killed its trainer.

its sad, and im sure a lot of people are blaming the orca. which is even sadder.

but i was youtubing the accident and i ended up finding this on david letterman

its funny :)

but i still love Shamu.

went back home on thursday evening and welcomed myself with a plate of Mie Sedap.

how i miss the taste and smell of it.

too bad its banned at home.

went to pavilion to meet up with my old sayfol friends.

watched valentines day - which was good, just that taylor swift's acting killed it - and ate this wantan mee.

which. was so good.

i'd love to eat another plate of that next time i go to pavilion.

went back home with the lrt coz i had to accompany kresno home.

psh, such a wuss.

but it was fun meeting with: kresno, qalila, hasbi, fadhil, daniel, iliyana, andrei, aravind and ali.

its funny to see them work :)

the noodles i ate in jusco got me a stomach ache yesterday, which was very disturbing.

and i just realized that ive only studied in indonesia for 3 and half years.

and my mom was like:

"ratri can speak indonesian within 3 and half years of school"

well, amazing thing innit :)

i'm smart :D

which is weird as well, because i never had completed any school i attended.

except the one i am in now.

hmmm.

i should get to the showers, i sweated so much during tennis.

or at least start on doing my assignments.

procrastinated too much.

i blame how i met your mother :)

he took my heart, i think he took my soul. [191]

2010-02-24T21:53:00.003+08:00

the weather has gotten more unpredictable these days.

had a sunny day and a very heavy rain for like 10 minutes.

this is wrong.

anywho, today we had the Olympics :)

it was quite fun, even though there was hardly any competition for our group.

im very tired and im in serious need of a foot massage.

we were team Pandora because of Avatar and our team was blue and green because of the environment.

complicated, but at least we knew our own team members.

the luge thing was the most fun because it got me really wet and got my mojo going haha.

i practically shouted the whole time for absolutely no reason.

and the outcome is my sore throat.

on monday, i couldnt stop eating my corn flakes.

and i just realized how good they are and what ive been missing.

haha.

ilya gave me a copy of bloc party's albums and theyre alright.

i still remember by bloc party sounds very familiar. i just dont know from where.

my laptop went through plastic surgery!

the screen flickered so much that i had to send it to IT.

and they told me that i had to change my screen.

they changed the back of the screen as well making the laptop cover all gay.

ngeh.

went to mid valley on sunday.

had manhattan fish market :) and i hijacked the trolley.

woweewaaweewaaa.

i still have uneaten food haha.

cannot wait to see ifa in june!

and hopefully going back or anywhere but staying in kl during my holidays.

cannot believe that im graduating from grade 10 in june.

time flies.

oh, like seriously? [190]

2010-02-20T18:40:00.003+08:00

my ass says hello :)

so on tuesday i had a lazy day.

went to the discovery channel website to learn some stuff.

and i think the one i liked most was this.

it makes me thank God for my abnormally huge thighs.

i watched 27 dresses and tarzan as well on that day.

its fun watching tarzan, coz i have completely forgotten the story.

my mom agrees with the starting being utterly dramatic.

and its really sad.

on wednesday i went out to ikea with hanif to eat meatballs :)

and i bought wonka nerds and laffy taffy.

i had fun :)

that night, i stayed up webcamming with my lovely cousin.

she told me the nicest thing.

i might probably be going back to indonesia with her coz her holidays are on the same time as mine.

perfect.

went to pyramid on thursday and the ice skating rink was packed! lol. it was so weird.

but it wasnt such a great day.

did nothing and got nothing.

downloaded a song or two from Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Vampire Weekend, Uncle Kracker, Metric and The Strokes.

today i downloaded Ingrid Michaelson, Regina Spektor and Bright eyes. beautiful songs :)

believe it or not, i even downloaded Ke$has album. and to be honest, it isnt that bad.

just very trashy - ke$ha, not her songs.

went to sayfol on friday.

hanif picked me up - but i was on the wrong side of ampang park. hahaha. oh well :)

that fatass veena didnt let me in - and she had no right to.

whatever - i hope being a teacher there brings her all happiness :)

i finally got to meet qalila, stephanie, isabella, hasbi, fadhil, darius and iliyana.

that made me very happy :)

i even got to eat lasagna.

not that im obsessed with it though.

went back home at 5 after chilling with hanif and darius.

this holiday has been more of me watching movies.

watched Tarzan, 27 Dresses, The Proposal, The Devil Wears Prada and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

waiting for The Princess and The Frog to load and thinking how i'm supposed to watch Borat and Wedding Crashers on megavideo.

i feel like a couch potato - without the food.

oh!

my trip to terengganu+kuantan was very frustrating, but it was quite good.

i think most of the time was more of us on the road and waiting for food.

i didnt eat that much since the food service everywhere we went was tres horrible.

(i feel like such a show-off using the word tres there)

but im not exaggerating.

our first dinner came only an hour after we ordered. and i was waiting for seafood but they were out of prawns and squids.

which sucks. horribly.

there was also a restaurant in kuantan that took forever to make our drinks.

i finished showering - and trust me, i take a very long time to shower - and the food wasnt there yet.

i dont know what thats supposed to mean, but i hate restaurants which has poor service. i wont go there or its franchise because of its lack of service.

the journey seemed like it was forever - especially to terengganu. i never knew it was that far by car.

it was around ten hours and that was literally a pain in the ass.

we stopped a little bit here and there.

the stop that took forever was my sister taking a pee in petronas and that was literally half an hour.

just to pee.

then, we went to eat beside the beach. well, it was more like a picnic.

it was really nice especially because its home-cooked :)

the beaches were so pretty and whenever we stopped near a beach i just have to go there.

i love the beach and the sun on my face - even though id be covering it with my sunnies.

oh - and i bought this hat that ive been wanting since 2007. thats three years.

that was a funny story because my friend bought it for 12 and i only had it for 10.

the nights were so pretty, because i could finally see the stars spread across the sky.

it was so pretty, sad that i couldnt take a picture of it.

i think i even managed to see a constellation :)

i flew a kite for the very first time in my life and i have to say its quite fun.

even though i played under the blazing sun. i managed to get my feet tanned and i like the colour of it now :)

there wasnt a single drop of rain i saw on those 3 days hence i miss the rain.

right now i want to play in the rain.

with my Panda♥

my holidays are over by tomorrow and i still need to catch up my sleep.

bah - i cannot wait for this month to be over.

february is shit month - with no doubt.

even though what i wrote sounds so fun, haha.

oh well. cant wait for February 26th!

help i'm alive.

travelled more than 189 km, that's for sure.

2010-02-16T00:47:00.002+08:00

a few pictures from my trip.

it was great!

but i shall tell more later because, i'm exhausted.

why?

la-ter.

i think i emphasized enough.

one eight eight.

2010-02-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

i feel so lucky right nowww.

this is the 188th post and on twitter i just followed TooHardToAnswer and i was the 888th follower.

i feel the luckiness already :)

ah, what a hectic week.

had volleyball on monday.

it was so tiring, yet so fun.

played tennis in the scorching hot sun on tuesday.

and scored good on my test :)

saw up and a magician show on wednesday.

because i went to see up, i had to do my work in school since i missed study period.

i finished my FCT on that day!

a very weird day, really.

had a plagiarism workshop and received LSR on thursday.

went to pyramid for andriana and blew bubbles with hanif.

i miss bubbles :(

study period on that day, was so fun.

received 3 balloons from ilya, andra and rina for valentines.

thank youuu :) didnt expect it at all.

ilya inhaled the helium for his balloon - hilarious.

went to see hanif and my mom picked me up after watching the last part of chuck.

out of nowhere, we went to klcc.

ate teppanyaki and found out all the shoes that i want are above three hundred. yes, thats 300.

ouch.

right now, in like supposedly 20 minutes, im gonna go to terengganu.

so my ass would be stuck to the car for like, 5 hours?

ngeh - i can go to hong kong with a plane with time like that.

but yea.

my holidays are finally here!

it's the (18)7th of february

2010-02-07T14:19:00.003+08:00

on friday, i watched gossip girl and greys anatomy.

yesterday i watched how i met your mother.

today im gonna watch glee.

but you know what i really need?

shoes.

like frekkin mcseriously - shoes.

there is a dire need for me to buy it.

my tennis shoes are tearing up slowly and im getting bored of my school shoes.

call me a girl - but i actually am one.

oh well.

life took me in one full ride yesterday.

supposed to be a good day. but i felt rather ignored and annoyed.

i mean - do i have to shed a few tears first to get her attention?

thats just wrong.

i feel very unwanted.

i didnt have much work to do for this weekend, thank god. but i had to do poems.

i had to do 3, and i guess i put a lot of thought into it.

managed to do a haiku, sonnet and free-verse.

what i hated about it was that - i took the whole day explaining it. wrote like 2 paragraphs explaining and breaking it down.

but in the assignment paper it said that theres only a need of 3-7 sentences.

what the hell.

for the last few days, me and kelvin have been addicted to daft punk.

and right now, i really am addicted to it.

kelvin asked me to download Alive 2007 and its so good.

i cant believe these guys are like 30+. i dont know what to say.

i had a quiz for history on wednesday and i got the results on friday.

im so glad about the results.

as well as science... i feel like im grade 9 all over again coz were learning whatever i learned when i was in grade 9.

oh well. im a genius then :D

watched some weird ass french movie.

its funny coz we could see the things thats being skipped. just fast forwarded.

i dont really know if that made sense or not actually.

apparently im going to terengganu with a couple of people i know.

and i might meet naufal there.

so there goes my CNY holidays :)

planning to visit sayfol... and go to bangsar with beatrice, nana and my sister.

whoopteedoo!

and might probably visit a doctor to check on my jaw.

i hope its not serious.

i cannot imagine how my life would be if i had to operate my jaw.

thats like no talking or laughing.

thats so... empty.

SO CUTE.

yes, i was bored in class and started googling these furry cute animals.

i go left, you go right - and stay right. [186]

2010-02-02T21:14:00.005+08:00

look, it's a red panda.

so cute :)

i checked out the NY Times yesterday in my english class and found the Grammy List.

Kings of Leon won three Grammys! congratulations :)
they deserve it - Use Somebody was a great song. it's so addictive, the band itself is too.

i played tennis after school today and on sunday.

on sunday my coach told me i played alright - but today i felt like the racket was just not for me.

well i managed to get a couple of good shots though.

i met darius on monday with his friends in pyramid coz he has holiday and sacrificed his monday for me. so i had to go.

i went there with andra and hanif and came back with only hanif.

its funny coz we only got back at 6... we actually did nothing in pyramid.

except for drinking in coffee bean and meeting like so many sayfolians (whoa) and chilling at starbucks.

oh well.

for dinner - i was more than tired due to tennis.

i didnt do so much, but i guess i was tired from school as well.

ordered the usual chicken chop, was with the usual people.

until i got a phone call. from a gym.

it's a long story, but it really pissed me off.

i never expected it coming from a gym.

they actually have a reputation to keep.

i'm lazy to type it all over again, but if youd like to read what happened, just go to my tumblr.

im scared.

but now i have to study history since i have a test tomorrow.

oh and now plouffe knows my name. and smiled at it.

i'm sorry - he's white. and hot.

i still love you Hanif :)

panda!

are you in? [185]

2010-01-31T08:44:00.002+08:00

this week has been such a ride for me.

i think im not going to join drama club anymore since the genre theyre doing is not my type...

i know i make a fool out of myself, but not that badly.

i was so hyped to play tennis on tuesday but the rain wet the courts so we didnt play.

instead me, my sister and ilya went to play with the volley ball and chilled in the courts for a bit. the weather was really really calming.

i had so much to finish up this whole week. i dont know how i managed to finish my history even though there was so much to do.

had a marketing test on wednesday and my FCT was due on that day.

the results were quite good, and in the end - i chose to market Edible Straws.

who wants some? :)

i had no study period on thursday even though i needed that. i ended up staying back after school printing out stuff and cutting a whole load of crap. i didnt even have enough space to stick the stuff.

i was so happy i finished, and rewarded myself with indomee and a dose of Hanif :)

had the hostel thing for andriana's birthday and mr plouffe was there.

funny :)

friday was such a mess. we couldnt decide what to do for andriana.

we ended up having lunch in pizza hut. there were 10 of us.

andriana, andra, amro, beatrice, ilya, my sister, dong, jenny, sohail and me.

big group, but i had fun talking to them.

the guys went to pool while us girls were just being girls window shopping :)

i found some gray jeans in forever 21 but apparently size 25 is too big for me. so, i cant :(

caught up with the guys and then we ended up teaching andriana to pool!

it was actually quite fun.

after that i went to meet up with hanif... we ended the day talking near the guard house. which was weird.

night full of drama but i said what i needed to say.

went to pavilion on saturday with my sister and darius with the monorail. the line was so freakin long but i dont know how i eventually cut into the line.

the ticket guy was such an ass, he just proved himself one coz he couldnt do math.

sucks to be him.

had gimbab and talked with darius and my sister left to see her friends.

waited for hasbi, edward and fadhil and talked a bit there.

went to grandmama's to fetch daniel and met his family. had a little bit of tension there, haha.

i went around forever 21 with darius while waiting for daniel to shop in cotton on.

me and hasbi got our sunnies there :D his is white and mine is pink. weeee :)

we then went to check out guitars and stuff and got back to pavilion and chilled in coffee bean.

we spent like 2 hours there just talking and laughing.

they're so funny.

i got to drink my favourite drink (which now darius loves, yay! finally someone else likes it) and talked to one of my favourite people. awesome.

we then decided to have dinner together since it was already 7. so we had dinner in the ship.

it was such a great "fancy" time and apparently to them - i was being so "nice"to the waiters and waitresses. ha-ha.

i havent laughed so hard for so long and these guys were the best people to make me laugh.

got back home with the monorail at around 9.

i sat down on the sofa with darius and then my mom told me that were gonna go pick my sister up in klcc.

sigh.

so much for comfort.

we picked her up in ampang park and sent darius back.

i was so tired. and practically died on my bed.

a group picture of us. finally.

like i said just now, this week has been a ride.

but life will always be a ride. and i'll always be up for it.

gotta live like we're dying.

and i won't let go. [184]

2010-01-25T22:13:00.004+08:00

it's raining outside.

i want to run out there right now.

have a rain ritual.

celebrate the day, for absolutely no reason.

i'm exceptionally tired today.

unsure of the reason why though.

things have changed and i'm gonna have to find a way to adapt to that change.

i cannot wait for the chinese new year break because apparently we're taking a trip to terengganu.

my dad's driving and i'm gonna finally see a beach, again.

i guess i just need to take a little breather.

even though things are going fine these days.

maybe it's just me.